I'll start off by saying that I've been interested in crystals for a few years now. I'm not even sure why, come to think of it. I suppose my interest in crystals came with my interest in metaphysics.

I've read so much information on crystals, and honestly it's hard to remember it all. I've never been able to find any information about how a blind person would make use of crystals, though. Everyone talks about pointing your crystal at something/someone and visualizing energy eminating from the point. The problem is, I don't have the slighest idea of what energy might look like. I've never seen in my life, so I have no idea about colors, either. I suppose I could substitute my lack of sight with tactile sensation. Instead of visualizing a ray of light eminating from a crystal, I could instead focus on...what, feeling my personal energy in my arm and feel it moving into my hand, then channel that feeling into the crystal?

This brings me to wands. I have one, it's a crystal wand. The shaft is copper, and it's covered with a spiraling piece of rosewood. The rosewood has two strips of silver that spiral with it. The strips are kind of...I want to say inlayed, but I'm not sure if that's the right term. They're inset into slots in the rosewood. There's even more silver on each end. The piece on one end looks like a drum or a band with a hook attached. There's a small clear quartz sphere held by the hook. You can even remove it, though one could lose the sphere if they did that. The other end has a piece similar to the first one, but attached to that is what looks like a small cup. The cup piece holds a rather large clear quartz point, I'd have to say maybe 3 inches long. Actually, the cup is shaped so that it fits the rounded edges of the crystal. This crystal can't be removed. I'm not sure what holds it in place, but it's stuck there for good I'd imagine. The drum or band pieces that are on both ends also have three rainbow moonstones affixed to them.

The wand wasn't built by me, it was actually given to me as a Christmas gift a few years ago. I have absolutely no idea of its origins. The only thing I know is that it came from a store called Crystal Voyage, which is in Seattle Washington somewhere. It came with a small card that says "Wandmaster" or something like that. I have no idea if these are mass-produced or what.

I also don't know how to activate it. Since I didn't build it, I don't know if it has a specific use, or if it's multipurpose. I don't even know if I'm attuned with it. I'll admit that I don't really experiment with it much, either. About a year or so ago, though, something interesting happened. I was just sitting and holding the wand, and someone who was over at the house said that they saw the crystal point get cloudy for a few seconds. Now, I have no idea what this could mean. It could have been a trick of the light, or I could have been unconsciously focusing energy into it. The following comes from templeofpeace.net. You can find the full article here.

"Crystal wands are extremely simple to operate. All that you need to do is to pick up your wand, focus the crystalline energy by visualizing a blue/white light of energy radiating from the apex of the quartz crystal in your wand, and you have now created your own powerful ray of energy and power."

This brings me right back to where I started...visualization. I don't know what a blue/white light of energy looks like. I think, then, that I'm going to have to use the method of sensation. This means that, before I can make use of a wand, I'm going to have to learn how to feel my personal energy. This is unless I can find another way to use a wand, crystal, etc. I've already downloaded some of the books from the Sacred-Magick.com site, and will be reading through them and trying out of some of the methods listed. So far I have...

"Tactical Magic" by Seth, "The New Hermetics, 21st Century Magick for Illumination and Power" by Jason Augustus Newcomb, "Hermetic Initiation" by Parush, and "Modern Magick: Eleven Lessons in the High Magickal Arts" by Donald Michael Kraig.

I do plan to obtain more, but these books are rather large, so I should have a pretty decent amount of stuf to digest.

So, this is my very first blog ever. Unlike most people though, I'm not going to fill this with personal problems and the like. This blog is, for all intents and purposes, a tome, my tome. Here I will talk about being a blind mage/magus/whatever people want to call it. I will be addressing issues such as how a blind mage uses magic/magik/magick, how some of the known rituals might be adapted for a blind mage, etc.

Keep in mind, though, that I am a complete beginner in magick. I don't even know what I'll be discovering here. I've worked with energy before, but I've never really learned/discovered my own system. I still have questions about how a blind person can work with magick, questions that are probably very obvious and right under my nose. This blog, or tome, will where I will be documenting these answers. I also probably won't be making entries daily. I'm new to this sort of thing. I don't generally write my thoughts down for all to see.

Also, for those who can see, please be aware that because I'm totally blind, things may not be formatted, or look very neat on the screen. I will make every attempt to learn how to use the formatting tools here so that I can present a neatly formatted blog.

With all that out of the way, welcome to my blog, tome, Holocron, whatever you wish to call it.