I think I made mention of this a while ago in the forum when that whole discussion about the indigo/violet phenomenon was going on. A friend of mine (and subsequent investigations into it) described it as divided into the "indigo children" and the "violet children" - I can't remember which was which, and it doesn't really matter, but the point is that one was meant to be a force of order and another a force of chaos, and according to my friend, who happens to be on the order side of the spectrum, I fall into the chaos side of things (it's important to note that this friend of mine is an abnormally close friend - we differ in opinions, but both trust each other phenominally).

At any rate, recently this got me thinking. Every time I look in a mirror, the first thing I notice is that my eyes remind me of serpent's eyes.

Now for most Christians, the first thing that'd pop into their head (but it's only just now popped into mine) when talking serpents, is Genesis, and the serpent in the tree. However, for me, the first thing that popped into my head was Tiamat, the Babylonian primordial dragon of the deep, rent in two by Marduk (or earlier than that, Enlil) and used to build the universe. Biblically, the Hebrews acknowledge Tiamat, in a meta-text fashion. Genesis talks about "tehom" - the primordial waters of creation, literally "the deep" - which God divides. Much the same thing.

Recently I've been meditating on the connection of chaos and Tiamat. Creation represents the supreme instance of order, but that massive order is still built out of Tiamat - the primordial chaos. Being a representative of universal disorder (not in the "imbalance" sense, but rather the "entropic/null-entropic" sense), means a connection to something both inside and outside of the universe (have you ever thought about nothingness? it has no rules, no order, no dimensions, no time - it cannot be destroyed or overwritten, because it has no experience of time in which to be destroyed, it will always exist)... Tiamat... and we return once more to my eyes. Serpentine, or draconic.

Interestingly, when attempting to play upon this connection, I do seem to be achieving results. Improbable events seem to start sparking off when I mentally link to the Tiamat concept. I'm not yet willing to bet on it, but I feel fantastic; masses more energy than I'd had before. Of course, the important thing I've been mixing in is that chaos is not an intent, it's a method. Most people associate chaos with destruction and darkness - I'm attempting to do the opposite (because chaos isn't destruction) and mix it with conceptions of light... and so far it's doing remarkably well.