For the past 2 weeks i have had an unexplained connection with something or someone that nether i nor anyone i have spoken to can identify. I am having feelings that do not belong to me and i am throwing terrible tantrums for no reason what so ever. I also do not realise what i am doing at the time. I thought this was some kind of external control until i experienced an actual being in the private section of my house. This is so well protected that not even my partner can enter it. This lead me to believe that this might be a manifestation of myself. If this is the case i do not understand why i can not control it. Any ideas. Advise would be much appreciated

Greetings,

I think your right on about this being a manifestation of yourself. I dealt with something similar a number of years ago. From what i could gather, we as magicians (or pick your title,lol) can be subject to a much greater degree to our subconscious. I think this comes from the fact that our magickal workings of lead to us having much deeper wellspring of power within us. The subconscious can draw from this power without us knowing it in order to make itself known.
If we have some unrealized desire or fear that becomes really strong yet un-addressed, it will use our latent power to give you a slap in the head, and say PAY ATTENTION!
If this is case then I'd say get yourself into a trance/meditative state and then give this 'being' a name. It doesn't matter what it is, just give it a name. Naming it will give you a degree of control over it, if it's of yourself, that is.
Once named, call it out. Command it to make itself known by whatever means you feel comfortable with. Scream at it, swear at it, or try to 'seduce' it out with kind words. And hopefully from their you can realize what it is and either take it strongly in hand or satisfy it.

But if you discover it's an outside entity, then you can proceed with some effective banishings. I doubt personally that it's the work of another person assaulting you. The energy or feeling would be different i think. But a good hex-block couldn't hurt, just in case.
Hope this helps.
Peace.

I'm not saying this to be derogatory. I'm a psych student at the University of Kentucky, and I'm not qualified to make diagnoses yet, but this sounds alarmingly similar to mania or bipolar disorder. People with bipolar disorder often feel that their emotions are coming from some external source. Just my two cents.

i though of that as a possibility but my therapist seems to think that i am sane (even if nobody else does) and he hasn't been wrong yet. And even if he is i doubt that a physical manifestation would appear. I will ask him to do some more tests though. Thanks

thanks for the advise will try it out tonight. If it is me it is going to be almost impossible to handle but if anybody can convince me of anything it will be me. As for the hex block i have a permanent shield in place. (i have annoyed a lot of powerful people whilst doing my research) i also tried banishing last night but the energy levels did not change so i doubt there was anything to banish. Wish me luck with myself.