I thought it would be fun and interesting to post my notes from my ritual diary as I try to progress through the lessons in the book I'm using as an introduction to the Kabbalah and Ritual Magick. It will run a day behind most likely. I just did a copy and paste from my notes, so...
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Tuesday, December 01, 2009 Today I consider to be the first in my formal practice of Ritual Magick, following the course outlined in Donald Michael Kraig's book, Modern Magick.
Being ill with a sore throat, relieving me of my obligation to go to work, and having the convenience of being able to spend the day with little interruption, I began the Relaxation Ritual as outlined within the book. What follows are the results of this meditation.
I chose the guided meditation from the tapes that go with the book today. Unfortunately, I am not aware of the time that I started the ritual, but it was in the morning hours, probably between the hours of 8 and 9a.m. I will do a better job of notating the actual time of day in future logs.
I found some difficulty in actually visualizing the “golden ball of light” that is used to spread relaxation throughout the body. However, I did achieve a state of extreme relaxation. It was during this relaxed state that I was able to make the appropriate visualizations better, if you can call it that. The author of the book states that if you can't actually see the ball of light, that is OK, just know that it is there. I can say for certain that I achieved that, and suspect that I came very close to actually seeing it with my eyes closed on another plane of existence. I often hear people refer to “The Mind's Eye,” and have had my own ideas about what that actually is. I can't be 100% certain, but my best attempt to describe my experience with it today is the creation of a picture in the mind that is invisible, yet very real and detailed. I couldn't see the picture, but I could “almost see it.” I am hoping that with practice, future attempts will reveal the entire picture from a visual or dream-like perspective. In other words, I think that future work in this area will bring the ability to see the picture formed in my head quite clearly. Today, it was more of a strong sense that it was there, I knew what it was, I just couldn't lift the veil to see it visually.
I have decided to go ahead and catch up the blog with the diary in real time. Here are the results for today:
Wednesday, December 02, 09Relaxation Ritual Results
Today's relaxation exercise went OK, but not as well as my first attempt yesterday. I am chalking it up to being sicker today than yesterday with my cold, but it could also be the difference in time of day. Today's exercise was done in the early evening hours between 3 and 5 PM as opposed to yesterday's early morning attempt. I had (and still have) some tension in my right shoulder. It seemed that no matter how much I tried to send the energy to that spot, the tension wouldn't completely go away. I also had more trouble with the visualization. I don't count today's attempt as a total failure since I was able to achieve a satisfactory sense of relaxation. Although the shoulder tension remained throughout, it did seem to feel somewhat better. I just couldn't shake it. As time has worn on, (a couple of hours since) the tension is getting worse again.
Tonight, I intend to move on to the second chapter of the DMK book and will most likely add at least the Tarot Contemplation Ritual to my work tomorrow. I am really looking forward to the LBRP. I have the intonations memorized for the most part, and I need to work on the visualization that goes along with it as well as the proper movements. I might have a few more days before I begin formal practice on the LBRP, but I will be going through it and memorizing it over the next few days to a week until I can do it without a cheat sheet.