I Implore You~ Options

I read on the topic description that it said "Healing" the implication being that one should come here for advice on healing; thus I present my situation to you for advice or recommendations.
For the past while I've been finding myself increasingly sliding down a slippery slope to a place I don't want to be, I feel somewhat unconnected to my spiritual nature, I find myself questioning my intelligence and find my energy dropping to painfully low levels - so much so I am over-sleeping on weekends or days off until four or five in the afternoon. Add to which there's an impending sense of lacking motivation, focus and any sort of intent in my life.
I know this sounds classic teenage depression, but I have hit my 20's and I feel that there's something dragging me down and if I don't find some method to break away from it I'm gonna end up taking a nose-dive into an even worse place than I am currently in.
To be completely honest it feels as if I am 'rotting' inside, decaying. Whenever I examine my body u sing my minds eye, all I see is a constant state of decay - which sometimes disappears - but then often comes back. I have done banishing after banishing but still feel that plug in my body as if everything that I build up is seeping out. I have checked my aura and constantly remove little 'tubes' that stick to it, probably from psychic vampires...but aside from that I need some help in how the hell I can get all of that away from me in the most efficient and powerful manner. I did kundalini for a while, but the lack of results I felt just lost my interest in that also.
Please for the love of God suggest something.

This post has been edited by uchih: Feb 19 2007, 04:25 PM

you did not try asking help from any entity on that matter? well before anything else surely it has to play with the mind but as you seemed to have tried a lot to come out of this situation, then from what i read you did not yet tried to call angels or concerned entities for that...



for a start you could ask help from the benevolent entities...like raphael, Barashakushu etc...

Greetings'uchih,

I recommend Gabriel or Barashakushu. What is the nature of the health issues?

Hi Uchih!

It sounds like you might be fighting an inner battle. From what you say, your heart doesn't agree with your current lifestyle. Each chakra tends to activate on its own at certain times of our lives. Starting with puberty (root chakra activation), our chakras take turns having the spotlight. This is why most highschoolers are so egotistical. The ego gets its turn from about 16-20. Then comes the heart chakra. Any insincerity you have toward your life goals is going to conflict in your mind. I suggest you focus inward on your heart, not on your body. Focus on what is timeless. Our bodies are in a constantly decomposing and rejuvinating. Feeling depressed tends to make you focus on the decay.

If there truely isn't anybody in your life psychically forcing those feelings on you, then I suggest self relfection. Intense, honest, ego-less self reflection. Never underestimate the power of your soul to push your self in the right direction. And don't underestimate the power of a good friend either. Maybe opening up to another will help?

Sound to me like you have post adolescent depression. Why this happens who knows. But its no fun regardless. It also sound like your energy is being taxed. You energy is like your pay check. You need to be able to budget it to survive. What I would do is try to figure out where your energy is going and redirect it. Consider stuff like your relationships, how satisfying are they, what's you work life like - maybe you need a vacation. Also stuff like your sex life, your diet and excercise, your sleeping patterns. You mentioned sleeping too much which can cause depression so maybe what you need to do is set an alarm and force yourself to get up and do something. Thats really how I deal with my own depression just stay bussy and focused on living my life as freely and healthy as I can.

Weird a few weeks ago I heard a voice in my head say "I implore you". I think im slightly schizofrenic but still where the hell did the word "Implore" come from. The only time ive ever heard that word is when I was about 7 and my mother used to teach me prayers one of them definately said "implore you".

Would I be right in assuming it means exploring the inside of you?


Also not to change the subject but I keep hearing a quiet voice calling me an animal. 5 seconds ago seemingly in response to what I just typed a voice said "you animal". Really quietly like being whispered.

This post has been edited by Xochipilli: Feb 21 2007, 10:36 PM

One of the tradeoffs with this lifestyle is the seemingly inevitable psychological conditions that come with the expansion of the human mind. Depression, ADD, Scizoprenia, are all quite common among our kind. That being said, you may be suffering from depression. Depression isn't only a teenager condition. It effects all people, and in fact, all species of mammal. It can occur at any age.

One of my cautions to you is to ALWAYS trust your instincts. If really feel you're falling victim to psy-vamps, then my may well be. Your subconscious mind will give you "hints" into your ailments. Listen to it.

Here's what I would suggests. First, reach a state of relaxation. Then stretch out with your feelings. Feel the "tubes", and their energy signiture. Follow the tubes all the way back to their owner. Then send the darkest, blackest, most vile energy you can up the tubes and into the psy-vamp. Visualize the psy-vamp growing instantly ill, retracting the tubes and the tubes themselves shriviling up and dying.


Good luck.

This post has been edited by Makavelli: Feb 27 2007, 12:50 PM