I have a problem. I am a projective empath. Bad. I can not control. When people are around me who are not "sensitive" they get bad headaches and their moods go all wonky. Every time they talk to me they feel my emotions and they can not just handle it, so they just avoid me. People who are sensitive say that I am overwhelming. They say I crowd them and that I am almost suffocating. I drown them in my own emotions to the point where they do not know who they are anymore. They like become a carbon copy of me.
I am mentally overwhelming and I can't shut it off. Normal people and "sensitive" people are afraid to come near me. When they are around me, they feel my emotions and they can not take it. It seems to be normally if I am speaking. They will refuse to come near me or they will talk to through e-mails or text. It is really bad for other "paths". I have warped their minds so many times on accident. When I am emotional forget it. Normal people don't know what the heck is going on, so it makes it worse for them. All they know is when I am around this person I get a headache, I start thinking and doing things I would not normally do, and I am feeling emotions that make no sense. The echo drives them nuts. The way people explain it, when I am emotional and I am speaking, they hear an echo of the words in their head along with feelings very loudly. I have no idea of how to turn it off or on. I actually had an extreme case of someone bashing their head against a wall to get it to stop.
Gets even worse. I project not just my emotions, but the emotions I am feeling from others all over the place. I don't know how to stop it and my mind is very extreme. I almost drove someone to the brink of suicide.
I have no idea of how to stop. The only solution that I know of is to shield the person. I know shields work on receptive things. They are good to block things, but how do I stop from sending. It makes me feel horrible. I was depressed about my esteem one time. I wanted people to see me as being attractive. Apparently, I created a projection where people saw me as attractive and became obssessed with me. It was nuts and depressing and frustrating.
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