Abductions, Abductions: Fact Or Fantasy Options

Greetings

(IMG:style_emoticons/default/storm.gif) I would value everyone's opinion on this serious matter. Plus I am in the throws of compiling a database/web site/journal of abduction experiences with the well documented signs of abduction.

I have always been totally forthright in accepting people's claims of being abducted by other entities, for what ever reason these non-human agencies have for abducting us mortals.

From the age of 5 to around 7/8 I experienced what is now best described as abduction. These experiences were real ... completely scary for a naive child trying to grow up in a strange world; a child told by family they were only nightmares.

These experiences have re-occurred on and off throughout my life. I can recall the opening moments in faily lucid detail:

1. A coldness would begin in my bedroom
2. There would be a overwhelming feeling of 'presence' in the room
3. Then the sound of whirring like wings or a raptor blades in the room (I can still conjure these sounds even now)
4. I would drift into sleep only to become paralysed in a semi sleep/out of body situation complete with paralysis and total panic
5. I would be unable to scream
6. An invisible weight would then be across my chest and sometimes a hand on my throat
7. A sensation of travel and meeting with unknown people the next day
8. Strange scarlike markings on my body

I have researched genuine reports of abduction over the last decade and found similarities to my experiences.

Over the last six weeks the entities have returned. I can add the following scenarios to the above list:

9. Awareness of a door like portal appearing before me which appears like an area of darkness in the room
10. If I close my eyes and use my other senses I perceive an actual doorway at this point
11. Presences come close and do something to my ears, my neck, my groin

Last night I had the sleep paralysis again. I became aware of being in a strange building with some kind of cryptic explanation given to be in the message of dreams. I had the old panic sensations and even cried out 'help me' in the night after trying without much success. The wife heard my screams and commented this morning. I've had a real feeling of presence and being watched today. My own fault really as I've been willing the entities to return!

Some would say its a vivid imagination or whatever. Na ... I've worn the Psychology/Para-Psychology tag and got the qualification; these experiences are real I can assure you. And they are mystery I fully intend to unravel. My body is riddled with strange marks. I have a circular scar on my chest; I have hard lump like something in my right ear which I thought was wax but won't go away; I have lumps and bumps on my neck and on my head which all coincide with where the entities 'fiddle' and they are not bumps I have sustained; they literally just appear. I feel like I'm 'wired for sound' with some technology which exists on a higher dimension and I constantly feel I am watched and listened too .... it is not paranoia and it is now pissing me off as I am struggling to think what I want to think and do what I want to do .... anyone else with the same experiences???

There has always been an increased sense of sexuality after these occurrences. Even as a young child I developed a very high sex drive.

I would be grateful if any forum member who's had similar (or different) experiences to either reply (or PM me).

I have formulated my own explanations; received insights from my metaphysical handlers (separate to those who 'attack' me). I will be undertaking hypnotherapy in the near future to try to unravel my 'lost time'.

This post has been edited by Mr_Merlin: Oct 10 2005, 03:48 AM

I'm wondering what you're current viewpoint of your abductions is? Do you feel that aliens are responsible? Or do you feel that these are demonic/evil beings? Do you feel that it's a collective group or random people?

Distinctly malevolently alien ...

I've had experiences of 'meetings' or journeys with benevolent beings and there is always a feeling of choice and joy and excitement prior to dimensional journeys ...

With these abductions I refer to .... I have no choice ... there is secrecy and manipulation ... there is fear ... there is malice .... I feel like I am laboratory rat and they have the right to do to me what they wish .... I am trapped and it is extremely un-nerving.

I have finally braved the criticism/chastisement of all and sundry because I need to converse with others who have had the same.

Here in NZ I have spoken to the wife of another Brit who had the same type of treatment as a child ... he too is reluctant to talk ... however, there is a distinct difference ... somehow I have broken the anvil program/the handler's key words ... and can remember!

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Thats a very interesting experience you have shared with us MrMerlin. I was reading some where that you have marks and bumbs that were left by your visitors. Have you ever gone to the doctor to find out what they were? I am sure you can get a test done and find out.

Have you ever gone to the doctor to find out what they were? I am sure you can get a test done and find out.

(IMG:style_emoticons/default/fie.gif) Embarrassment has prevented me (laughter) ... any doctor would think me nuts!

No seriously ... a number of tiny circular 'blood spots' appeared on my skin over my chest. They appeared one day not long after some of the 'nightmares'. I thought nothing of it in truth. Then a much larger one appeared on my chest on my heart side at the top of my left lung. It is still there to this day ... an angry red blood spot like no other spot/mark I have ever seen .... I went to the doctor in the UK years ago ... refered to specialist ... tested for skin cancer etc etc .... doctor decided it was Cutus Marmerrata (not how you spell it) which is a situation where the blood capillaries of the skin break down on the surface and permit a bruising like appearance with any pressure applied to the skin!!! It is supposedly a temporary thing which recovers itself. I am still waiting 8 years later for the spots to disappear!!!

Doctors ... I had the skin cancer scare ... bioposy results etc .... nothing ...

Saw a psychologist .... seen two ... and a counsellor and spoken to dozen of 'new age' folk .... mmmmm .... my experiences match the abduction reports perfectly. I have not mentioned a number of other experiences/signs/symptoms etc ....

I also have an old circular marking on my chest over my heart which is very strange ...

I have seen the likely abductees once too .... about 11 years ago. Seven in the morning I woke up, turned over in bed and they were there beside my bed. This occurred during a period of about a month to six weeks where I could visually see the next level of the astral plane with my mortal eyes ... I saw the spiders .... effigies .... lower entities etc in my room ...

The abductees number five .... they were about four feet in height. It was just like someone had airbrushed the very air itself to make them appear. They were dressed in Egyptian like armour/robes ... I could only see their eyes through slits ... in the centre of their bodies there was a spinning wheel like mechanism with something in its centre ...

They just stood there watching me ...

I looked at them ... fearlessly turning over and going back to sleep!

With hindsight I should have tried to communicate. I should have done been wary ... but then that is me and how I react to visitations having had them for the last 36 years (since I was 4).

I've tried all means to try to remove the 'lump' in my ear. Had my ears syringed .... nurse commented how hard and tricky the lump was. The lump feels like a bone like structure but it wasn't there before; it ain't grissle and I don't have anything like it in my other ear.

I commented to my father years ago about the many lumps on my head/skull and he'd said that everyone's skull has oddments and strange lumps etc; not to be bothered about it ....

It's only in the last few weeks that I've consciously become concerned about the marks and bumps etc. I'd done a deep meditation where I'd evoked Thoth and then been given a fire letter which rattled through my consciousness ... it had vibrated on a certain word/letter (not going to disclose it) and since then I've woken up to the abduction experiences ... before I'd had sub-conscious locks/blocks which had made me angry/impatient/itchy whenever my thoughts drifted to the nightmares .... it was like I was being kept away from those memories ...

I don't have any of those sensations now. I can enter a meditative state and recall my childhood memories to a certain point. I can get to the point of seeing my bedroom back then... sensing the presence ... sensing it reaching me ... sensing it about to take me somewhere astrally .... then it gets confusing .... I always find myself in a solitary meditation not recalling how I got there but knowing I had just projected somewhere relevant to my memories ...

It had been such an experience which had brought whoever recently ... the other night when was attacked ...

I am now seeking a trained person to regress me through the experience ... there is an Australian lady who has some kind of machine which can detect if the experiences you 'recall' are real or imaginary .... she's been working with a number of ex army personnel who've had major need for regression ... it is something relating to a classified jump gate ...

She is apparently also a trained hypnotherapist ... so watch this space if I can make contact with her

This post has been edited by Mr_Merlin: Oct 13 2005, 04:43 AM