Sochen Padmy My First Servitor Options

I decided to create a servitor to destroy my exboyfriends and my exbestfriends relationship. And NO I don't care what the Karma police say, I'm a Witch NOT Wiccan, and if you'd know th s#$t those two put me through, you'd get it. Sorry, angry rant.

On to my little lady, I created a Sigil for her and whatnot, created with the destructive mars attributes on a tuesday etc. I began to charge her sigil using meditation, I used a Theta-wave CD, thinking that would help me access an altared state quicker. I must have passed out or something, but I "came to" and I was flying around my room, hurling in circles around and around and around, and I look down and my roomate is sitting there, I asked him am I flying? He's like yup, here take my hand. I did and was able to get myself back on the couch. I sit down and I look at my left should and there is the outline of a Neon green "tinkerbell" just kinda bobbling there, she gets bigger and bigger and turns to look at me, I assumed it was Sochen Padmy, so again I told what her purpose was and told her to be on her way. I got a sense that she didn't really want to go, she wanted to hang with me for a bit. She's puttering as we speak, but what the hell? Did I screw up somewhere?

Hello aconite, I was just wondering how this servitor turned out for you, seeing as how nobody ever replied here to your post.

This goes as advice to anyone who is new to servitors, and I know there's alot out there, but I don't think it's enough.

Meditation CD's I'm guessing work great like "Brainwave generator" which is what I use for meditating sometimes. If you have really good dream recall, then you'll remember everything, if you don't, in my experience, it can seem like you passed out or fell asleep. You should write out instructions for yourself, like a check list, that you can see once you've entered a meditative state and go through it if you are going to create a servitor. If you checked the list while in a trance state, you should see it marked in the appropiate places when you come back to reality. I've done this once or twice, so it does work.

Make sure you are very sure about your intent and confident in yourself and know that you have the power to control your servitor, and everything should work out great. If your servitor doesn't want to do something for you, command it and threaten it to do what you want, and if that doesn't get you what you want, then either it's gone rogue, or there is some kind of (::gasp:(IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) karma working against you there that is there to teach you a lesson. But, like all magick, even that karma can be torn down and plowed right through if you really want what you are asking for. It just takes determination and patience, which is something I've learned about studying and practicing hoodoo and low magick in general. You need to realize that there are no barriers, no aura is strong enough when you want to curse someone that you can't tear down.

I know some people might say that I'm going off topic here, but considering this servitor was created to break up a relationship, I don't think so. I don't like karma either, but it's there if the people you're trying to affect believe in it, or don't believe in magick at all.

I'd like to hear what your experience's have been, aconite, with this servitor.