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esoterica |
Feb 13 2007, 12:06 PM
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master rishi's post caused me to think, and think hard, about whom i serve and why, and being able to express it plainly
while i have a lot of 'friends' that i call on occasionally, i do not 'serve' them per se, nor do i stick with just one - i have my life's mission as we all do, and i have given my allegiance to a base concept that i feel is at the heart of all our creation (kneeling, sword in hand with the hilt ready for their grasping, but they just smiled and touched the hilt with their fingers indicating that they accepted my service but that i was bonded to another as yet unknown to me), but as for a particular deity or entity, no, i do not serve so
i have asked and looked for many, many years, and some have tried to claim me, but it is always proven quickly that they don't, usually by time and circumstance, so i thought chronos at one time, but that was proven false as well, so i made up my own deity that embodied the many-faceted and outside-of-time concepts of the energy involved, the true 'unknown god' (or goddess)
perhaps i will return to my one true love when i die for the last time
so whom do you serve (are bonded to) and why?
e.
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Xenomancer |
Feb 13 2007, 06:41 PM
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Seems I am bound a bit to Enki, but it's weird as of reasons...
It just...seemed to fit. I drew character parallels. He's intellectual, I am as well. He likes to build/create/implement, so do I. In fact, I was infatuated with Steel Tech and Erector sets, not to mention Lego until I was the ripe age of 16. Whenever I built, sometimes I would stop almost 70% of the way to completion, just because an epiphany of more efficient structure design would dawn onto me. In one day, I would have a project evolve up to 8 times before I called it a masterpiece of work.
I like juryrigging things if I think it can work, my childhood hero was MacGyver, and lo and behold, who is a hallmark of ingenuity that I behold with my experience? Enki. *shrug*
It's like we ran together with alot of things, so I just have a REALLY close association with him. Some things, though, are my own, so thats why I keep it at me being a "subordinative associate," I do jobs for him or whatever, dreamscape missions, plans, rituals, feasts of honor...heck, even theorums to bring knowledge back to the people by means of drawing parallels to magick, science, and making a bridge between the two!
Service? I would serve the Tao, or to the Aramaic proto-christians, Abwoon.
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¡HA HA! ¡ESTOY USANDO EL INTERNET!- Never learn the Art of Sword before the Art of Dance. - Celtic Proverb- Even with spiritual power, an unchecked ego will only seek to deify itself. - Frank MacEowen- One cannot traverse waters without causing waves. - Xenomancer- I find it interesting that we as scholars of metaphysics have no problem discussing the intricacies of the threads of reality, but when it comes to the things that really matter, we forget them. - Xenomancer- This world is your home. We have a mix of everything here. If you want better, make better. There's no rule of going elsewhere for the tools. That's what magick is about. - Xenomancer
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esoterica |
Feb 19 2007, 08:19 AM
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mm all, and boy do i have some news!
thank you all so much for pointing me toward the great lord enki, for without your influence i wouldn't have looked to him for the answer to my nagging problem of whom did i serve
well, leave it to 'the great lord of the land, sea and sky' to resolve my nagging problem with a simple twist of my brains - i was deeply feeling the loss of not having a known master (ronin) when i my depression, i loosely spoke to the great lord and asked about who i belong to, and he said, clear as a deep-toned bell, 'you are of the valley spirit' - i recognized the words immediately and they rung so true i cried and cried and put out a huge chunk of beer-marinated roast beef (all that i had!) for his consumption (and thanks for the ideas on that too)
how could i have been so blind for so many years! perhaps it was the xtian brainwashing of my youth, but i thought i had rid my subconscious of the xtian vermin, but whatever it was it was a very deep blockage - did he break some long held spell, or kick in some long-locked door? i am eternally grateful to the great lord of earth. sea and sky! life! health! prosperity! may your children prosper and your wives not sour!
the valley spirit never dies, it is the earth, primal mother - es (wave) ter (terra) ka (life) ki (duh!) ga (gaia) - its all there - so why couldn't i see it before? why and how was it blocked its weird though, the roman gaea still holds a small amount of disgust surrounding her - this is deep-set and must be investigated!
again many thanks to all, for without your words i would not have looked and i would still not have known - this is such a tremendous moment in my life! - i shall withdraw for a while to investifgate this, and thank you all again
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Petrus |
Dec 2 2007, 11:32 AM
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QUOTE(Acid09 @ Dec 2 2007, 06:03 PM) BUt I don't think they influence us based on how much we suck up to them; rather the deeds we commit. Luke 6:46 - "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" (IMG: style_emoticons/default/Symbols_1911.gif) Another way I heard it put once is that the most effective way to worship the Goddess is to become the Goddess...in terms of behaviour etc. This is a principle which in practical terms, I need to remember a lot more often. (IMG: style_emoticons/default/004.gif)
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Xenomancer |
Dec 3 2007, 10:45 AM
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QUOTE(Petrus @ Dec 2 2007, 12:32 PM) Luke 6:46 - "Why do you call me, 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" (IMG: style_emoticons/default/Symbols_1911.gif) Another way I heard it put once is that the most effective way to worship the Goddess is to become the Goddess...in terms of behaviour etc. This is a principle which in practical terms, I need to remember a lot more often. (IMG: style_emoticons/default/004.gif) "Be the Miracle..." I like that. In a similar sense, that would mean my life's mission is one of the path of a scholar, then. Makes sense to me. This post has been edited by Xenomancer: Dec 3 2007, 10:46 AM
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¡HA HA! ¡ESTOY USANDO EL INTERNET!- Never learn the Art of Sword before the Art of Dance. - Celtic Proverb- Even with spiritual power, an unchecked ego will only seek to deify itself. - Frank MacEowen- One cannot traverse waters without causing waves. - Xenomancer- I find it interesting that we as scholars of metaphysics have no problem discussing the intricacies of the threads of reality, but when it comes to the things that really matter, we forget them. - Xenomancer- This world is your home. We have a mix of everything here. If you want better, make better. There's no rule of going elsewhere for the tools. That's what magick is about. - Xenomancer
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