QUOTE(Radiant Star @ Nov 23 2005, 07:35 PM)
What a wonderful explanation.
I think I have fallen into the trap of matching my life up to how happy I feel about it and maybe that is a mistake; we cannot be happy about everything and maybe to feel good and superior about our magick or indeed anything brings a false happiness and a false sense of security, so that when things change or we let of that which we believe is important, it must be inevitable that things look dark.
When you are happy, be happy.
When you are sad, be sad.
What usually happens is we experience the moment of happiness or sadness, and then the 'ego' takes over and we dwell of false happiness or sadness. I drive to work, someone cuts in front of me at a junction forcing me to brake, i'm angry. That moment of 'real' anger is very brief, but the ego then creates more and more anger and thoughts of what an arsehole the other guy is, what I should have shouted at him blah blah blah. Happiness is the same, we experience 'real' moments of happiness and then the ego takes over and we feel we SHOULD be happy, how if only we had X or Y we woul be happy blah blah blah.
Bankei said 'abide in the unborn', I think he had the right idea. The dark night of the soul can be seen as the opening of the floodgates of all these ego created false emotions that overwhelm us. Getting through this flood is hard. As bad as it feels it is also a comfortable place to be because we feel so bad it constantly puts US at the centre of the world which is very egocentric.
Misery loves company, as the old saying goes.