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i know what you mean bb3, one must be aware of the way the actions of relatives affect one. Sometimes it causes anger, discontent, etc. Sometimes joy, pleasure, etc.
But one should realize that all these things are empty in itself, the actions are just smal inputs, like the way a light switch enables a light bulb to glow or go out. It is not the switch that makes the light glow, it is the electricity flowing trough the wires. If one was to disconnect the switch and make a direct connection to the bulb, it would never go out. On the other hand, if one where to cut the wire, the bulb would never burn.
So it is with relatives and their effect on us, we are the wires, we are the bulb, and our senses are the switches, to wich wires and how we connect the switches is our own choice.
yes, mediocracy i completely think the same.
And these false emotions, what are they. Deconstruct anger, then what is left, in the now it does not exist, it is the effect you get when you light a stick of incense and spin it around in circles. You appear to have created a circle, but there is not circle, there is only a glowing stick. and this stick is not round.
So it is with emotions, they are illusions, the effect of memory. Our brain keeps them alive, by constantly and actively remembering the nanosecond before, to create something that we call an emotion. The experience seems very real, but is an illusion. If Thought is T, Memory is M, Time is S and Emotion is E, then the following formulas are true:
M=T+S
E=M*T
E=(T+S)*T
E=Tē+TS
So the most important factor would be T->thought, and a secondary factor is time. So anger is nothing more than thoughts combined with a small factor of time. The feeling itself is caused by other factors, such as the importance we point to that thought or thoughts. This enables the feeling to exist.
However living in the now, the act of wu wei as the taoists call it, makes it impossible to have long lasting emotions but peace and tranquility, because the mind is not storing and/or remembering these thoughts influenced by time. It is only experiencing the now. only emotions as a result of the now are possible, and something like the dark night is impossible to occur.
Dealing with emotions as we are living them in the now, is another matter alltogether.
This leads me to what mr merlin said. accepting the dark night is to me the action of stopping to cling to it. Once the mind is emptied, and the only interaction that exists is the one that deals with the now, then how can long lasting feelings of dread and lonliness like experienced in the dark night endure. These feelings are a result of a constant memory of lonliness, weakness, fears. While we may not be experiencing these actions at the moment. Right now i am typing a post, what does that have to do with the dark night, nothing. If i accept it then this posting is only tekst and my laptop, nothing more, occuring at the place i am now. Why would anyone feel unhappy because he is typing, that is just silly.
Still, this is easyer said than done.
I must thank you all again, because i feel i am getting somewhere.
I feel i must open myself up and be fearless, remove all my doubts, and respond to people with utmost interest and compassion. Then clear my mind about doubts of my apearance, my style, my knowledge, my skill. And genuinly interact with this world without expectations or remorse, or even contentment over achievements accomplished.
Forgive me for my spelling, i am certain i made many mistakes.
And thank you all for your attention, i know this was a relatively long and perhaps boring post.
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In LVX,
Frater A.V.I.A.F.
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Dark night of the soul
A_Smoking_Fox Dark night of the soul Nov 22 2005, 04:44 PM
Nov 22 2005, 04:44 PM
