THe same thing happened to me when i bought my first copy of the Necronomicon. I had nightmares/creepy crawlies the works it real repeled me. So I put it away in a box at the back of a closet covered with the usually storage closet stufff and forgot about it for about 15 years. Then about 3 years ago it entered my mind again and i knew exactly where it was I tried to forget about it again but it was always in the back of my mindand sometime the fornt of my mind. Everything seemed to remind me about it. After about 2 months i got it out and read it. Everytime i touched it this time a feeling of peace came over me. Now I am so glad and feel very accepted by the 50 names. I think the problem was that I was not ready and they knew it and let me know it. My advise is to you since you have a connection to this book and it contents already is put it some where out of sight and out of mind. If and when you are ready it will let you know. I hope this helps.
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