Well, with any form of magick, you can be a f*ck up, lol! I'm usually more eloquent, or at least more "stated" when I write, but I believe that first sentance sums it up friend, lol!!
But to use a Necronomicon specific example, about 2 years ago (Hmm, actually 3, come to think of it, yes, 3 years ago at this point.), I was a different person. My ex-girlfriend of 5 years (and more, if you count High School) had cheated on me, and broke my heart. I was hurting. Bad. There is no pain so pervasive, so immediate, so penetrating, and so consistent, as that of a broken heart. Even Dark Nights of the Soul struggle in approaching it...but that's a different sort of pain.
To quell the pain, I concocted a plan to rid myself of my feelings for her forever. In hindsight, and six months after the fact, I realised that it was a bad idea, because what I really wanted was simply for the pain to stop, or at the very least, to ease. Not to cast a dark shadow on our past history, the good times, feelings, memories, exquisite experiences shared, youth through adulthood, life. I didn't want to forget my memories, or her.....I simply wanted the pain of not ever having them occur again to stop, or at the very least, to ease.
In anycase, the pain from the event was so great, that the only thing I could think of was to "Stop pain. NOW", so , in short, what I did was summon one of the 50 names, and ask him to "Break the magical link between us", and with that request, I sent him all of my love feelings toward her, and hate; our history shared, and the times I had during our relationship even when she was not present (a person need not be present to be part of an Era).....
I had no, fu*king, clue as to what I was really asking. What I asked for, and what I really wanted were worlds apart.
At this point, two things should be noted. 1., This mistake could have been made with any magical system, not neccesarilly just the Nec (Though, the events afterward, I believe, only the Nec could have done) and 2., I had NO expereince with evocation during this time. In fact, it would be around 1 1/2 to 2 years later before I performed my first evocation under "normal" circumstances. Normal meaning "Not completely out of my f*cking mind". lol! I'm joking, but I'm serious. I got the results I got, largly, because I had a HUGE reserve of emotional power. I mean, HUGH. Inflame thyself with prayer? What an understatement. That, combined with my relative magical experience, also gave me the results I got.
Now, about the results....Let's just say, I scarred myself. Badly. Really bad. Really really bad. And no, that too, is not an understatement. I will say however, that I began the process of healing immediatly after I burned to ashes the entities sigil (approximatly 6 months later). As of last week, I'd say I'm about 90% over the matter. The magicakl link was also restored in a somewhat weak and tattered form, but it was restored. I'll also say some pretty fu*ked up mundane experiences occured as well, but I guess you already knew that, lol.
As for the entity in question, here, I might add, that along with everything else, I DID make known to the entity my reasons for what I asked, in a jumbled manner....but he just went along with what I asked....I suppose if it was another entity, perhaps I would have at least gotten a "are you sure"? Perhaps this is wishful thinking.
As for who the entity was, I actually do not remember, and I find that odd, then again, maybe not. I do remember right up to the point where I selected his sigil. At that time, i was looking for entities that would in some way, specialise, or hint at, the ability to break the link between people, things, places, anything. There is none among the 50 names (where the entity came from) expressly for that purpose, so I chose the next best thing....one dealing with war, or something. I even scanned the 50 names to see if it would jump out at me. Nope.
I hope you gain more from this than just what you asked friend. (IMG:
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-F.F.
Results Never Quite What You Expect?, Bad luck?
daev Results Never Quite What You Expect? Apr 8 2005, 02:16 PM
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