Need More Chesed. Options

I just read DANTE'S EQUATION by Jane Jensen and it really relit my interest in Kaballah. Its fiction but pulls from science, math and the kaballah to give a new twist on "ascension" that I have pursued for years.

So anyway I need more Chesed to balance my excessive Gevurah. Any ideas that dont include rituals?

I know little of the tree and these terms, but I was wondering if a pathworking might show up an imbalance - if there was one - I have found sometimes that these ways of working highlight areas of me that are important, in a positive way or showing up things that may be a hindrance to ourselves or others at times; of course, these things can be relative to the situation.

I suppose it is ultimately about thinking things through and noticing our movements towards being overpowerirng or when we were compassionate and balancing it with our own needs.

Still, I have a feeling you know this already, but other members might want the input this basic input.

I know little of the tree and these terms, but I was wondering if a pathworking might show up an imbalance - if there was one - I have found sometimes that these ways of working highlight areas of me that are important, in a positive way or showing up things that may be a hindrance to ourselves or others at times; of course, these things can be relative to the situation.

I suppose it is ultimately about thinking things through and noticing our movements towards being overpowerirng or when we were compassionate and balancing it with our own needs.

Still, I have a feeling you know this already, but other members might want the input this basic input.

The problem is I'm too judgemental. I work in a hospital and love helping people. But I need to stop judging. I've never done pathworking so I will have to google it, thanks.

I should note that I was spending about 4 hours a day praying/meditating a day and it has deepened my communion with God but it has also made me very judgemental. I was doing this for the past six years but stopped a couple weeks ago to take a breather. It seems every insight or mystical boost I gain I get a coorosponding inflation of ego. I suppose I need that Gevurah energy to stick with my path but now I need to soften it with some Chesed.

I may have the answer inside me but I am not letting myself see it. I figure there will be a connection with virtures like if you want to tone down Lust then you first work on Gluttony sicne they are both connected. I wonder what cardinal sin is conected to being too judnemental? Pride? That seems obvious. So what is connected to pride?

I tried to plot it on the tree starting with the gluttony-lust connection. But I have a block. Hence the posting.

The problem is I'm too judgemental. I work in a hospital and love helping people. But I need to stop judging. I've never done pathworking so I will have to google it, thanks.

I should note that I was spending about 4 hours a day praying/meditating a day and it has deepened my communion with God but it has also made me very judgemental. I was doing this for the past six years but stopped a couple weeks ago to take a breather. It seems every insight or mystical boost I gain I get a coorosponding inflation of ego. I suppose I need that Gevurah energy to stick with my path but now I need to soften it with some Chesed.

I may have the answer inside me but I am not letting myself see it. I figure there will be a connection with virtures like if you want to tone down Lust then you first work on Gluttony sicne they are both connected. I wonder what cardinal sin is conected to being too judnemental? Pride? That seems obvious. So what is connected to pride?

I tried to plot it on the tree starting with the gluttony-lust connection. But I have a block. Hence the posting.

What types of meditation excercises do you do? I might suggest some insight meditations relating to your judgmental attitudes and see what types of people you tend to judge often, and if perhaps you can see reasons why they may act in the ways that they do. Also, what you could do is try to 'judge' yourself. Start analyzing and observing the thoughts and feelings you have about people and if maybe there isn't some prejudice you maintain towards people who behave in certain ways, due to certain negative experiences you had with similar individuals. Acknowledging the conditionality of our perspectives in life is a good way to check our egos. It's important to remember that everyone acts the way they do because they think (at least at that moment) that it's the best course of action given their previous experiences and current mind-set. Alter any of those variables and things can change pretty quickly. So when you feel ready, go back to meditations (but maybe try altering your approach); this is generally the most effective way to activate your inherent Chesed qualities. Also, you may try to find some manner to sublimate your Geburah tendencies-instead of being a critic of individuals, try looking into art or music criticism. Anyway, hope this was some help.