Anyone Here Use The 50 Names Of Marduk?, Through Meditation? Options

I have been curious about using one of the 50 names of Marduk. Specifically Gil. However since I haven't walked the Gates and won't be able to for awhile I was thinking about meditating on the sigil and then utilizing an A. O. Spare method of sending out my request instead of
a straight evocation. Anyone try this? I'd probably have better luck using Inanna since she had the whole sacred prostitution in her temple I believe but Gil might understand my request better.
Any thoughts?

Okay here are my results currently. When I meditated on Gil ( just meditated) a few days ago. I gained the courage to break up with my girlfriend of a year. I'd been wanting to do that for awhile and until that I could never work up the courage to do it. So it was a partial success. Also I must say I never suffered from an energy drain afterward.
Now 2 days ago I used the Necronomicom Spellbook method to use Hegal. Since I'm now free I'd like to find love. But I must say that I've been exhausted since then. I did wake up last night around 3AM, and thought I might try Hegal again or even Gil but I was so tired I said screw it, and went back to bed. Today I bought a bowl and I'm going to burn the sigil I made in it soon. Perhaps that'll make me feel better. Thats my experiences so far. I'll keep you posted.