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Hello, I'm new to this site, just found it yesterday. I have a question...

I'm convinced that my soul left my body about 11 or 12 years ago and never came back. Is this possible? In all my research, I did finally find that according to old Chinese mysticism, it can happen but is usually accompanied by great physical illness (which I did have very much so at first). Physical (and mental) hindrance is still intermittent; it manifests usually as a deep rooted unshakeable anxiety. What I really want to know is, is there any way to get back my spirit? Since then it feels I've been, at varying levels, just "going through the motions"... not really alive...

As I mentioned friend, you think many an interesting thought while in that state, so, take your own thoughts with a grain of salt. A couple dashes if you have more, lol! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

I admit, my knowledge of the 8 circuits of conciouness is rather sparing, though I do have Promethius Rising. (I should read it then, huh? lol!) . With that said, in my experience, the Dark Night can be related to the abyss, but not neccesarily.

For example, you can do energy work (such as with the Kundalini) that could potentially push your mind over in to the abyss, therefore causing a Dark Night, (Happened to me)

While doing spiritual work of a kind that draws close to God (however you may cocieve it), for some reason, the closer you get, the more in "love" you get, then all of a sudden, the lights go out. (Happened to me too)

Hell, probably happed to everyone at some point. The thing is, with any Dark Night the most important thing you need to have is the ability to look at what needs looking at, and having the ability to handle what you see, to accept what you see, integrating it, and allowing it to change as it merges with you.

I want to say alot, but, I'll keep it short. I'll simply say that hospitalisation is not fun, and modern psychological methods worked into a magickal paradigm is very healthy and wonderful! Try that site, and watch a few of the vids when you have time friend.

-F.F.