Truth Seeking, what is life, what is humanity, what is you Options

as the topic suggests.

Lately i am missing more occult discussions on these forums. altough i like talking about vegetarianism and drugs, i want to talk more about the nature of my beliefs and study.
namely the search for pure untainted truth. and the gathering of as much power as i can contain.
Those are my goals, towards enlightenment.

I was wondering how others view their search for whatever they are searching for.
perhaps some have found some form of truth they are content with, i wish to hear about these opinions in a respectable way.
no bashing others ideas, just sharing (IMG:style_emoticons/default/baby.gif)

I myself belief in non-existance. however i believe this truth has to be experienced in an enlightening experience, or more experiences.
at the moment i have experienced this at times. but i seem to keep forgetting it in the long run, and their seems to be a need for constant experiencing this non-existance. thus to live fully in this awarenes. This is hard to do, but rewarding as it makes life a peacefull experiences.

No-mind, the stopping of mind chatter is the primary practise of this belief, toghether with meditation.

this i try to combine with ceremonial magick, trying to get a taste and feeling of magickal essense and energys. i have found they have a distinct taste when working with them over the years. enlarging this taste and connection is one of my goals.

the increase in magickal potence gives me more control over things in life trough magick. this enables me to worry less about things not nesesary for the first goal of no mind. This way i can use magick to steer my life where i want it with little effort, so that i can practise no-mind and non-existance in an undisturbed way.

However, i have many questions still and many ways to go.

I hope this will get a possible discussion started, perhaps we can enlighten each other on various ways.
i would really like to learn more about the magickal side, sinse i consider myself still a child in learning at that side. The consepts of the spiritual side are easier.

so lets get started, anyone wanna share their core beliefs, mentalities conserning their practise. not really the tools of the trade, but really what goes on in the head while doing them. feelings tastes sensations that happen during practise.

my magick practise tastes verry purple. the nature of these energies tastes not evil or good, its a strange taste. a feeling of strength and energy without a connection to good or evil, a purple goo swirling around me. this is not something i visualise, its not important to me how you visualise your magick. its the feedback you get. no matter how i visualise my magick acts, it always tastes like this to me, wich is something i think more true than my visualisations.

I believe that by discussing these tactile connections we can learn from each other how to closer connect to these energies. in truth and not merely visualisation techniques. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/biggrin.gif)

lets begin...

I used to think I knew what I believed. I used to think that black was black andwhite was white. Now I don't know. Many changes have occured to me in my life. Mediumship is a faculty that has developed with me as I have grown older, it has given me many answers but also raised many questions.

My granddaughter asks me 'Nanny how can you talk to people that aren't here any more?' I want to answer 'Oh, its easy darling', but is it? Are we not missing one of the biggest wonders of the world? The fact that when we leave our earthy body we can still 'be', we are still here.

I don't know any more. I know that I can detect a subtle energy shift within others around me, I know that I am aware when my home isn't cleansed of negativity. I know that 'magick' works, and that it IS possible to cast a spell that is succesful.

I know that words can harm, that they are sometimes greater weapons than swords and that when my little grandchildren touch my face and say 'Nanny I love you' it means more than any of that.

But otherwise....I don't really know.