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post Nov 22 2005, 04:44 PM
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I have reason to believe i am going trough the dark night of the soul. Wich is fine and all that, but it causes me to feel like shit for the moment.
Everything, even death, seems hollow and boring to me.
I feel this intens feeling of unhappynes, sadness, melancholy if you will.
If you want a complete description of what exactly it is, google has good results.

Could anyone provide me with some guidance, so that i may awake from this night a well rested man? Or perhaps some real life experiences, its always more interesting than regurgitated googleisms. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/fie.gif)


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post Oct 31 2006, 11:03 AM
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During a dark night of the sould it is important to find something, anything to stimulate you. It is my theory that these dark nights, while a normal part of our existance, are far too often allowed to carry on longer than necessary. The trick is to find the rose growing in the concrete. Good luck.


That is the tendancy, to stimulate yourself trough impulses. and you may well be succesfull in your effort.
You may conquer the dark night by stimulating yourself into something else.
But by doing that, you are leavin the dark night back into the evening, not into the dawn.
Your turning back and are leaving your spiritual progress behind if you overstimulate yourself and indulge yourself into the material worlds benefits and interests.

Silent meditation, how agonizing it may be, is the best rememedy. more precizely metta meditation.
But do not take on to much at once, set reasonable goals, becouse else you will likely go insane in the darkness.

Angalor, what you describe is something i went trough before i first picked up magick. I don't want to make less of your experience, since i know how painfull it can be.
But it sounds more like a depression than a dark night. wich is a horrible thing to go trough and can also be magickally rewarding in the end.

this is my highly personall opinion, which i believe to be true:

In the dark night you would have just kept on going, with no problem.
You would have kept your friends with no problem, they might even think you are at the top of your life, peaking mentally and physicly you seem outwardly. The dark night makes you go trough the motions of life, like a nihilistic machine. At least thats how it was for me.
Its not that there is fear for certain things, its just that everything seems so boring, so meaningless.
And there is no desire to do anything. However there is no desire not to do it either.
Doing or not doing feel exactly the same, boring and unrewarding, unhappy.
to a depressed person, this seems like a blessing, becouse you have no limitations in the dark night. An enourmous freedom is all around you.
Yet the pain of everything being boring and meaningless is constantly there also , making one feel extremely sad.

i would think about killing myself, to end the pain. But in the end, the killing seemed like a boring thing to do. And not feeling pain seemed like a boring thing too.
I would perform in school, in life, with friends, with great success. However, i took my diploma after the years of study, with the thought that it was a boring piece of paper. no satisfaction whatsoever, which was a little sad to think about.
I talked the talk, walked the walk, scoring high on my projects and intermship. yet all the time it gave me no joy. It was all boring but i just did it, going with the flow, totally bored.
i meditated, thinking, how boring is this. I went to bed quickly falling asleep due to my boredom.

Then i just said to my self a day. So what is it all boring, happyness stems from the inside. And i stopped caring about wheter it was boring or not. I stopped analysing how i felt about it. And just felt happy all the time. The happyness is much the same than the dark night, instead of feeling boring you feel happy. Its just a change of emotions. Take the above text and change boring with happy, and you have how i felt in my newfound freedom.

Thats how far i got, then it went away and i became more a "normal human" again. It seems i lost track of the magick for a while, and it set me back a little (IMG:style_emoticons/default/oops.gif)
Right now, i am seeking again that feeling post dark night. But i suspect i should stop seeking, becouse the feeling of non-caring of the dark night was the key to that happyness. Right now the only thing holding me back is the seeking itself. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)


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A_Smoking_Fox   Dark night of the soul   Nov 22 2005, 04:44 PM
mediocracy   Been there for a while now myself. I had some brie...   Nov 22 2005, 05:08 PM
A_Smoking_Fox   Lets hope we reach the end of the tunnel. For the ...   Nov 23 2005, 10:56 AM
Radiant Star   The ego is necessary, the idea that we should try ...   Nov 23 2005, 11:22 AM
A_Smoking_Fox   thanks for your help radiant star. However, i do ...   Nov 23 2005, 12:18 PM
Radiant Star   What a wonderful explanation. I think I have fall...   Nov 23 2005, 12:35 PM
esoterica   mars is in retrograde = introspection, self-confli...   Nov 23 2005, 12:36 PM
mediocracy   Fear is the key. Overcome fear and the ego is dest...   Nov 23 2005, 05:41 PM
A_Smoking_Fox   Hmm, fear. That is a big obstacle indeed. there a...   Nov 24 2005, 01:14 AM
Bb3   There's really no correct answer to your probl...   Nov 24 2005, 01:21 AM
mediocracy   When you are happy, be happy. When you are sad,...   Nov 24 2005, 02:27 AM
Mr_Merlin   Greetings to you all! aaaah ... 'The Long...   Nov 24 2005, 03:18 AM
A_Smoking_Fox   i know what you mean bb3, one must be aware of the...   Nov 24 2005, 05:28 AM
mediocracy   As you have pointed out, the 'simple' part...   Nov 24 2005, 09:05 AM
Bb3   Mediocracy, it's not that you can't turn b...   Nov 24 2005, 12:55 PM
Athena   The best advice is to just wait it out. Be sur...   Nov 24 2005, 05:27 PM
Athena   I fully agree on the ego bit! Not destroy ...   Nov 24 2005, 05:30 PM
Athena   I must say, i do not think that is so. Our past ...   Nov 24 2005, 05:31 PM
Athena   That part always sucks :( I think everyone is ...   Nov 24 2005, 05:35 PM
Mr_Merlin   Greetings Fellow Magicians ... I did the search e...   Nov 25 2005, 03:12 AM
Radiant Star   Good explanations Mr Merlin :) I don't like ...   Nov 25 2005, 04:23 AM
esoterica   Actually, it should open your eyes to the fact tha...   Nov 25 2005, 08:30 AM
Marquis DeSade   I haven't read all the posts in-depth but I wi...   Nov 27 2005, 12:44 AM
A_Smoking_Fox   marquis, i will have to listen to that song then, ...   Nov 27 2005, 04:25 PM
ॐ Z ॐ   This is a depleating condition I have been afflict...   Dec 17 2005, 10:14 PM
Mr_Merlin   Well said! It is exactly that (for me anyway...   Dec 18 2005, 03:50 AM
A_Smoking_Fox   I read a text by some yogi once. It had nothing to...   Dec 18 2005, 05:23 AM
mediocracy   You cannot serve both God and Mammon. http://www....   Dec 18 2005, 12:34 PM
Mr_Merlin   :clap: Well said! Excellent! I couldn...   Dec 19 2005, 03:16 AM
Rakesh   ] Words can not describe how perfectly this rings...   Jan 6 2006, 04:56 PM
A_Smoking_Fox   I see some light, perhaps a lot. when i stop to a...   Jan 11 2006, 01:47 PM
Sadako   Interestingly enough, I went through a sort of ...   Jan 13 2006, 03:09 AM
A_Smoking_Fox   exactly. Exactly. We may have different faiths, bu...   Jan 13 2006, 04:54 AM
Rakesh   Yeah, it appears to be a built-in psychological pu...   Jan 31 2006, 05:06 PM
Psypocalypse   The dark night of the soul is a total collapse of ...   Feb 11 2006, 06:31 PM
Acid09   Force yourself to do something new. As psypocaly...   Feb 13 2006, 02:41 PM
WhiteRaven   "Not the goody-goody christian god either...   Feb 27 2006, 01:49 PM
A_Smoking_Fox   good advice Acid09. Simple yet wise advice. The be...   Feb 27 2006, 05:32 PM
Sicksicksicks   I always saw the ego as the basic survival instinc...   Mar 27 2006, 07:51 PM
Angalor   Actually I went through something very similar not...   Apr 28 2006, 10:47 PM
A_Smoking_Fox   ah, i went trough that to, but i do not think that...   Jun 14 2006, 02:58 PM
Makavelli   During a dark night of the sould it is important t...   Jul 27 2006, 03:10 PM
Suxur-Mash596   I have found the underlying reason for these Dark ...   Nov 4 2006, 11:14 PM

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