I'm A Bad Christian- Thinking About Doing This...... Options

OK folks, let me tell a little about myself. I'm a new member here, and am interested in this bussiness. This is bothering me a'lot. I have always been drawn to the occult since my Grandfather was posessed (and got rid of the wretched familiar thankfully) when I was little. Big family secret. Thank God he got rid of this thing, but this is still in part a generational curse. Now , your probably wondering why a Christian would involve himself with something nasty such as demon summoning right? Well, the answer is the same Saul gave in Endor- I need to "know"-even if I get kicked in the stomach. I desire several things for this evocation, first, I wish for certain knowledge. Second, I want to plead to the evil beings which (have the legal authority to continue thanks to my foolishness) to stop messing with my family (as I said- this is a generational thing. the familiar left my grandfather but he still torments my family from occasion to occasion. All thanks to these damn books on the occult he had tsc tsc). Anyway, this is my first evocation, I hate this bussiness but I'm really worried about a series of things. I have chosen the Demon Paimon and shall follow the Greater key/Legemeton procedures. Why such a fierce infernal king for a first summoning? Easy: I wish to contact a being who though clearly fallen still wishes to serve God in some measure and worships him above all things. A contrite being. I have read accounts here and elsewhere that Paimon has utter contempt for individuals who don't fear God. He loathes disobedient pricks, he detests occultists and magicians. He requires respect from the summoner.Excellent. I want a wise spirit. The ceremony is set, but I really fear (considering family history) that the possession factor could be very real. Your opinion?

There are no "evil" spirits or anything like that. It all depends on how you work with each spirit, all spirits (demons, angels, daemons, dark ones, light ones, whatever you want to call them) require respect if you want to work with them. Think of making business with someone, whether you like or dislike him you try to settle down a price to get what you ask for so in the end both of you are happy. Well that is almost like what you do when asking for help from spirits... Demons, Angels, or w/e

Also, note that invoking and evoking any spirit without knowing about it is not a good idea, summoning Demons is also not the best idea, especially if you do not have as much background information on what you're summoning, or any relations with that spirit.

I can assure you, Demons, just like any other spirits, are helpful spirits to work with.