I'm A Bad Christian- Thinking About Doing This...... Options

OK folks, let me tell a little about myself. I'm a new member here, and am interested in this bussiness. This is bothering me a'lot. I have always been drawn to the occult since my Grandfather was posessed (and got rid of the wretched familiar thankfully) when I was little. Big family secret. Thank God he got rid of this thing, but this is still in part a generational curse. Now , your probably wondering why a Christian would involve himself with something nasty such as demon summoning right? Well, the answer is the same Saul gave in Endor- I need to "know"-even if I get kicked in the stomach. I desire several things for this evocation, first, I wish for certain knowledge. Second, I want to plead to the evil beings which (have the legal authority to continue thanks to my foolishness) to stop messing with my family (as I said- this is a generational thing. the familiar left my grandfather but he still torments my family from occasion to occasion. All thanks to these damn books on the occult he had tsc tsc). Anyway, this is my first evocation, I hate this bussiness but I'm really worried about a series of things. I have chosen the Demon Paimon and shall follow the Greater key/Legemeton procedures. Why such a fierce infernal king for a first summoning? Easy: I wish to contact a being who though clearly fallen still wishes to serve God in some measure and worships him above all things. A contrite being. I have read accounts here and elsewhere that Paimon has utter contempt for individuals who don't fear God. He loathes disobedient pricks, he detests occultists and magicians. He requires respect from the summoner.Excellent. I want a wise spirit. The ceremony is set, but I really fear (considering family history) that the possession factor could be very real. Your opinion?

Hey r9999,

Just a question. Where did you get your info on Paimon?... first thing said in the Goetia about him is that he is "very obedient unto LUCIFER". Nothing about fear of G-d or hatred towards Magicians and/or occultists. He is a great King, and will judge whether or not you are worthy for his knowledge - it can be surmised that he is not appreciative of the dabbling occultist summoning him for shits and giggles. Something to think about is how you interpret Lucifer - that is, whether you see him as the bringer of light or as the embodiment of darkness. Given your Christian upbringing and evident remaining ties to the tradition it seems to me you likely believe in the later interpretation and are therefore walking into a lion's den. Be carefull, do your research! Gmcbroom's suggestion to invoke archangels seems much safer and more practical given your situation. Good luck.