Speed Induced "hallucinations" Options

Now I know that everybody who has experienced "hallucinations" from staying up days on methamphetamine will almost always put it down to speed induced psychosis but after having a very lifelike conversation with a voice in after 3 days of sleep deprivation and lack of food im starting to question how imaginary these so called hallucinations really are.

Im interested in hearing opinions on the subject from occultists. I had no idea what psionics were until I had this experience. The voice talked about all sorts of things but at one point it said "Seeing as your more in tune with this dimension where deceased people reside, I can send you psionic frequencies". Also the voice asked me if it was my first psychedelic encounter.

Another very strange detail was the fact that after the voice told me it was going to give me a wet willy I actually felt a cold finger poke me in the back. It either felt like a cold finger or cold water seeping through my t-shirt.

Alot of very strange and unexplainable things happened. The voice seemed hellbent on convincing me I was dead too. It wanted me to face a certain direction and I noticed when I did the voice would get louder and more intense. At one point the voice said "Now that I have his undivided attention, I concentrate on his frontal lobe". I felt hands on each side of my face after that.

Something fairly strange that happened was after the voice told me I was going to get carpol tunnel syndrome my hands went ice cold and started sweating excessively for no logical reason.

Should I just assume it was my subconscious speaking to me or was there something else involved? The reason I posted in the psionics forum is because of that statement it made about psionic frequencies. I might have heard about psionics but I didnt know exactly what it was at the time.

Heh. Thanx for the suggestion and the kind words, but as for the weed thing, I'm asthmatic. Smoking crap just doesn't fly unless I also want a trip to the ER along with the Magical Mystery Tour. Shrooms, no thanx. Alcohol acts as a disassociative with me, so...besides, I like morel mushrooms glazed in a nice white wine sauce over duck. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wink.gif) And on pizza, and in chicken cacciatore, and in Chinese food, etc. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wink.gif) Using them as something other than a gourmet food seems, well, sacreligious to me.

As for the strong mind, you're right, up to a point. Extended use of psychoactive drugs can rewire your brain in unexpected ways. If you're say, bipolar, and not wired right to begin with, that may be a good thing. If you're normal, that may not be so good.

The problem with methamphetamine is that it destroys the pleasure centre in the brain by unloading so much dopamine into it the brain short-circuits itself. If it's occasional use, that damage will heal--usually. But that takes time. Some people go clinically psychotic and have CNS damage after just one use. That's not a risk I'd like to take. And a lot of the hard crap is illegal because it's very dangerous, but that was discussed elsewhere on this board.

I like to gamble, but I'll stick to Powerball for the time being. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wink.gif)

And exercise and the self-discipline that goes along with *real* attainment strengthens your mind further. Crowley may have done future generations a real service with magic (despite my personal feelings about him, I'd probably have kicked his ass for being a wanker), but in the end he destroyed himself. Let that be an object lesson for us all.

Edit: damn when people post at the same time. That spirit doesn't seem like a particularly helpful or positive one. I'd make a sigil of its name (if known) and open up a Solomonic Can O'Whupass on him.

This post has been edited by Darkmage: Dec 1 2006, 01:30 PM