Speed Induced "hallucinations" Options

Now I know that everybody who has experienced "hallucinations" from staying up days on methamphetamine will almost always put it down to speed induced psychosis but after having a very lifelike conversation with a voice in after 3 days of sleep deprivation and lack of food im starting to question how imaginary these so called hallucinations really are.

Im interested in hearing opinions on the subject from occultists. I had no idea what psionics were until I had this experience. The voice talked about all sorts of things but at one point it said "Seeing as your more in tune with this dimension where deceased people reside, I can send you psionic frequencies". Also the voice asked me if it was my first psychedelic encounter.

Another very strange detail was the fact that after the voice told me it was going to give me a wet willy I actually felt a cold finger poke me in the back. It either felt like a cold finger or cold water seeping through my t-shirt.

Alot of very strange and unexplainable things happened. The voice seemed hellbent on convincing me I was dead too. It wanted me to face a certain direction and I noticed when I did the voice would get louder and more intense. At one point the voice said "Now that I have his undivided attention, I concentrate on his frontal lobe". I felt hands on each side of my face after that.

Something fairly strange that happened was after the voice told me I was going to get carpol tunnel syndrome my hands went ice cold and started sweating excessively for no logical reason.

Should I just assume it was my subconscious speaking to me or was there something else involved? The reason I posted in the psionics forum is because of that statement it made about psionic frequencies. I might have heard about psionics but I didnt know exactly what it was at the time.

I have to say nearly everything to do with the occult interests me. Shamanism, alchemy, hypnosis, voodoo, necromancy, psionics, radionics, demonology, astral travelling, telepathy, telekinesis, goetia etc. Im not interested in the likes of scientology though. Seems to me thats stuffs riddles with pranksters, con artists and bullshit artists.

Basically all I really care about is expanded my mind, becoming wiser, stronger, more knowledgable and pretty much a better person in body and mind. Im not getting into magick to influence other people or gain money, friends, women or any of that crap. That I can do without magick. Im getting into it to have full control over myself and also to attain occult knowledge of myself and the world around me. Basically im getting into it for self control and divination. Although if I have the ability to attract good friends, women, better jobs etc. then I see no reason why not to.

Also it would be fairly cool to have the ability to heal people through magick thats one of the reasons I aspire to become a shaman.

The only situations I would ever use black magick is against other brujo's or dark occultists who cause harm to me or people around me.