Why Scorcer, Witch, Magi? Options

We all have some reason for studying our craft what ever we call it. For some its to help others. For others its to help our selfs and still others its power. There are a host of other reasons. What is your reason? Has it changed? Has it stayed the same? Please put your thoughts and musings down and share them. We may learn something from others or learn something about our selfs.

My purpose has always been in one way or another the same. To understand myself, and then to take what I've found and use it to influence the world. When I truly understand myself then I will truly understand my life, the things in it, the people around me, and the ones I call friends, family, lover, etc. What I want to know, in its basic form, is "why". Why anything is, what the underlying force and reason of the seemingly random events cloaking our lives are, what they stand for, what they metaphorically mean to me, as a human, as a man, as a husband, a brother and a son. Why I am the way I am, what makes me thus, what explains the basic elements of the universe and basically, in all sense of the word, a general "Why?"

In essence, I choose my path based on what works for me. I have learned to use Twilight without being a sorcerer, and I learned at a very early age that I can manipulate the Astral to my benefit. I learned later that by invoking the names of spirits I could bargain with them to certain means, and how to summon, enchant, and bind spirits. I stepped into the field of necromancy long ago, only to find that it's a barrier one cannot step back across. I still fight with myself on a spiritual basis, given that I've technically and legally died, three times during my short life thus far. I have at once, understood everything and understood that I cannot understand everything, that's a foolish endeavor as everything always changes.

In a short sentence to summarize things: I've been many places and seen many things; but I have only surmised that the true field of human knowledge is at once unattainable and intrinsic to the human soul, and to go anywhere in a spiritual and literal sense we have to go nowhere - The seventh direction is the self. I am a Wizard, a Sorcerer, a Necromancer, a Witch, an Enchanter, and yet I am none of these things because none of these things are truly me. I am simply me, and I'll find my own way to describe things.

To throw that all back into one word: Discovery.

The quest for knowledge, is why I started.