Why Scorcer, Witch, Magi? Options

We all have some reason for studying our craft what ever we call it. For some its to help others. For others its to help our selfs and still others its power. There are a host of other reasons. What is your reason? Has it changed? Has it stayed the same? Please put your thoughts and musings down and share them. We may learn something from others or learn something about our selfs.

At first it was greed, egotism, inferiority, laziness, escape, fantasy, power, self indulgence, idealism and more; and the possibility of easily accomplishing the desires these produced.

Then it was greed, egotism, inferiority, laziness, escape, fantasy, power, self indulgence, idealism and more; and the ability to make a concentrated, purposeful, and actively conscious effort in confronting these undesirable aspects of myself, and seeking out and creatively dealing with the sources of these. This is an ongoing project.

Now i incorporate magick as a tool for increasing my perceptions of and ability to interact with the world around me. And a big part of this is to help people, especially children and young people, and especially those who have had difficult starts to life. Not in a way that they ever need to be, or actually do become conscious of it in a "real" sense, but i still utilise the concept of it with them for the purposes of enhancing their imaginations and creativity.

I think the biggest reason for me though is that although i can not say what it is like for all people, for myself i feel like it is fundamental and necessary for me to operate on this level mentally. It is in my nature to need to exercise those parts of my mind which are utilised in the practice of magick. Most of these energies are utilised in any truly creative act, and i find that the best works of fiction and films and paintings and art are the ones where you can really see that that "supra-imagination" was at work in their creation. For me though i think what im getting at though is that its necessary, i mean i feel like im incomplete or something, or that i cant really be happy or content if im not using that super creative energy in my everyday life. Not just for the purpose of making external art, but actually for playing an active part in creating "my" "life". For me life is magickal. Not in some aesthetic subjective way, but that it is a cold hard fact of life whether we choose or are able to see it or not. And its like i am kind of dead, or at least dying on the inside if i am not taking part in that.