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Hello, Acid09!
Thank you for stating that you're not trying to pick on me, and also for asking me questions instead of asking if I was sure, and if I didn't think maybe it was actually this, or that, sorta like what the poster before you did.....I know he didn't mean to be hurtful, but he sorta annoyed me....anyhoo. Answers to your questions.
For as long as I can remember, I've known that there was something wrong with me. In elementary school, I had more friends who were girls then that were guys. I don't know if that means anything, though, I don't remember me being really femenine back then (I never have been, not now even, cuz I'm still in the closet)....
Ever since I started school, since I was about 7, I've always been interested in the occult. By about 3rd grade I'd read all the superstition books and such in the library. And there was one bok in particular that really caught my attention, I remember. It was a book of superstitions, and one of them was, that if you kissed your elbow, you'd change sex.
When I got the first three Harry Potter books (I must've been about 8 or 9), I remember reading the second one, Chamber of Secrets. And the concept of Polyjuice potion really interested me. I thought, I want some of that. I remember daydreaming that if I was Harry, I'd get one of Hermione's hairs and make some of that potion......
Since about age 7 or 8, I've wanted to be a girl. It always bothered me that I couldn't be, but it wasn't really a major part of my life. I never told anyone, cuz I didn't figure it mattered, I thought, why should I tell anyone about that, they'd put me in the loony bin.
It didn't really bother me that much, I just kept living. I didn't really act femenine.
I remember that thru much of elementary school, I was always sad. Of course, I wasn't really that well liked in elementary school, i mean, i was teased, but I had friends. Even when things were great, I would sometimes just start crying and I wouldn't know why. It took me a while to figure out what it was that was wrong with me, to connect the fact that I wanted to be a girl to the fact that I was sad most of the time.
Around 12 or 13 the want to be a girl became more urgent and defined. I remember that it was what I wished for when I blew out the candles on my cake the day of my 13th birthday.
Soon after I read that one book, I realised that I couldn't kiss my elbow. Der-der. So I went on to researching different methods of making a wish. I must've tried them all. None worked, obviously. So I gave up. The idea of using magic towards my particular ends didn't pop up again until I was 13. But I didn't start trying to find something on the web until about a year and a half later.
And now I forgot what I was talking about (stupid sleep deprivation).
Any hoo, if you have anymore questions, or if I haven't made something clear enough, please feel free to pm me back!
Sincerely,
John [edited to protect personal identity]
a.k.a. Jennifer
I went ahead and posted your PM in this thread so other member's could add their imput as well. If you'd rather keep it private, pm me again and I'll delete this post. I'm also moving this thread to [edit]the coffee shop, I forgot that not having 30 posts means you can't view the member's lounge[/edit] because this sounds more like a personal issue than a noob asking questions about magick.
As far as the subject is conserned:
Why do you think you'd be happier if you were a girl instead of a guy?
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For as long as I can remember, I've known that there was something wrong with me. In elementary school, I had more friends who were girls then that were guys.
Whats wrong is that you think there is something wrong with you. As you are, you are no more or less "wrong" then anybody else.
[edit]what I mean is feeling that you are a female in a male body is not wrong and you should not feel any shame for these beliefs[/edit]
When I was in grade school I had more female friends as well. I didn't act girly or anything either and I never wanted to be a girl because of it. That doesn't mean I never wondered what it would be like to have my own - well female body, thats actually pretty normal, especially at your age to think about.
When you think to yourself that you are a girl in a guy's body are you really thinking "I wish I were a girl", or "I wonder what it would be like"? Basically what I gesturing is the possibility that you are simply in a curious age and are confussing the curiosity to be female with transexuallity.
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Ever since I started school, since I was about 7, I've always been interested in the occult. By about 3rd grade I'd read all the superstition books and such in the library. And there was one bok in particular that really caught my attention, I remember. It was a book of superstitions, and one of them was, that if you kissed your elbow, you'd change sex.
When I got the first three Harry Potter books (I must've been about 8 or 9), I remember reading the second one, Chamber of Secrets. And the concept of Polyjuice potion really interested me. I thought, I want some of that. I remember daydreaming that if I was Harry, I'd get one of Hermione's hairs and make some of that potion......
Magick works on a more subtle level. There is no way to "magically" alter your physical being into the opposite sex. Besides, pop culture is a piss poor source for real indepth occult mysticism. What happens in books or movies is not really what real magicians do. If you're looking for magick as a means to alter your gender you probably won't find it, at least not litterally.
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Since about age 7 or 8, I've wanted to be a girl. It always bothered me that I couldn't be, but it wasn't really a major part of my life. I never told anyone, cuz I didn't figure it mattered, I thought, why should I tell anyone about that, they'd put me in the loony bin.
It didn't really bother me that much, I just kept living. I didn't really act femenine.
I remember that thru much of elementary school, I was always sad. Of course, I wasn't really that well liked in elementary school, i mean, i was teased, but I had friends. Even when things were great, I would sometimes just start crying and I wouldn't know why. It took me a while to figure out what it was that was wrong with me, to connect the fact that I wanted to be a girl to the fact that I was sad most of the time.
Why were you sad? Was it just because of the teasing? Or was there some trumatic period in your early life? What about siblings - did you have any older or younger sisters? The point of me asking these questions is to try and associate some event(s) that occured that were negative with your desire to be female.
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Around 12 or 13 the want to be a girl became more urgent and defined. I remember that it was what I wished for when I blew out the candles on my cake the day of my 13th birthday.
Soon after I read that one book, I realised that I couldn't kiss my elbow. Der-der. So I went on to researching different methods of making a wish. I must've tried them all. None worked, obviously. So I gave up. The idea of using magic towards my particular ends didn't pop up again until I was 13. But I didn't start trying to find something on the web until about a year and a half later.
And now I forgot what I was talking about (stupid sleep deprivation).
Short of hormone thearopy and surgery there is no other way to change genders. And even if you did you would still be legally male, in some states at least.
I think you should spend some time getting to know your masculine side. You're only 16, 2 years shy of being 18. Once you're that age you can make the choice to switch genders. But you're young still and I think before you jump the gun on being female you should first at least try to enjoy being male. My point is if you really become female and later realize you missed out on being male, there's no growing a new penis. You'd be stuck that way for the rest of your life, a possible prision of sorts.
There are also certain biological realities to consider: Even if you got the gender change, surgically, you'd still be missing certain parts and you'd never be able to have kids of your own either. You'd, in a way, just be a mutilated male.
Maybe spiritually you are female. But your biology has made you male. All I'm saying is that rather than spend so much time trying to turn yourself into a female, enjoy what you have now knowing that even if you did change that doesn't mean you'd be any happier. Then, if you still believe being female would make you happier, there will come a time when you will be at an age where you can make the legal choice to switch genders.
This post has been edited by Acid09: Jan 3 2007, 07:40 PM
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