Hello, Anybody Know Anything About This? Options

Hello everyone!

I'm Jenny, and I'm transsexual. In other words, I'm a girl stuck in a guy's body. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/weeping.gif) I've been looking on the net for about a year and a half for some way to fix the issue of me being transsexual i.e., ....turn myself into a girl. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wish.gif)

So, my uestion is, has anybody here ever heard of someone changing into a member of the opposite sex because of/with magic? Has anyone heard of any methods? Anyone have any ideas where I could look? *besides Occultforums.com, there was a HUGE thread on the subject there before some hacker destroyed everything..... (IMG:style_emoticons/default/tickedoff.gif) * Any ideas, please let me know.

Oh, and yes, I already know about estrogen, but at my age I would have to go thru my mom to get it, and besides her not being keen on the idea at all, I don't know if I could get it prescribed...... (IMG:style_emoticons/default/unsure.gif)

So, anyway, any input on the subject would be greatly appreciated! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/biggrin.gif)

Thanks a bunch,
Jenny (IMG:style_emoticons/default/dry.gif)

P.S. Sorry if it sounds like I'm spell begging.....

This post has been edited by polite.heretic: Jan 1 2007, 10:18 PM

Hello! Quote time, lol (IMG:style_emoticons/default/yu.gif)

I'm still curious about why you seem to have such a negative self image. That male thing staring back at you is how your mom and dad's DNA made you turn out -its you in this life time. There's nothing wrong about that. Again your statement further suggests to me that you should seek advice from a professional - your negative self image may be caused by depression or anxiety (or both), not your gender. The point is I think you need assistance in sorting out what you're going through right now. Once you've dealt with these feelings I think you'll be much more certain weather or not you are a male or female.

I am depressed. I'm currently on two anti-depressants (IMG:style_emoticons/default/33.gif) (Lexapro & Wellbutrin), and I see a councelor every other Monday. The only reason I have such a negative self image about my body is because of this gender identity issue. Half the girls in my band class are ga-ga for me, lol. I think that as a man, I don't look half bad. (IMG:style_emoticons/default/biggrin.gif) I'm skinny, not very muscular, I don't do any sports, but I don't think of myself as looking horrible as a guy. I just don't want to look "handsome".

In dealing with this conflict of personal identity I think you should seek advice from a councilor. Don't jump my case about this suggestion I don't think you're insane and besides we all have points in our lives where a councilor would come in handy. I do think you need help sorting out the details of your issue. I will say that any councilor you choose should be somebody who is open minded enough to at least accept the possibility that you may really be a girl. Don't seek counciling from anybody who'd just try to make you conform with your biology - nor the opposite either.

I do really want to talk to a councelor; particularly one that deals with gender identity problems. Lol, I know you're not calling me insane (Although I will be if I don't get to talk to a specialist about this whole thing soon). And I agree, that I will have to be careful to get a councelor that's non-judgemental, who won't push me either way.

You seem to be in a really conflicted point in your life.

Yup. I've sort of come to a point where I think, well, if I can't be sure about this, how can I be 100% sure of anything else about me? Prolly a lot of that is just me being a teenager, but having arguements with yourself about if what you feel about yourself is true, all of the circular thinking, oy...! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/face06.gif)

In my humble opinion I think you should exploit your God given "fruits" with the opposite sex -safely of course, if you haven't already - before you transform yourself. This way you'll at least know to the full extent what it was like to be male. I think it will help you truely decide what you believe about yourself.

(IMG:style_emoticons/default/spoton.gif) I'm totally for that! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/banana.gif)
I might feel a little guilty if I was only doing it to help figure something out about myself though, like I was using her (IMG:style_emoticons/default/unsure.gif) ....I don't know. But no, I do want to do that before I transition.

My mom thinks that I think I think I'm a girl because I feel that I have shortcomings as a guy, that I don't think I'm a good enough man, so I should be a girl. She thinks it's just a phase. Which it may be. But I don't think of myself as a girl because of any imagined 'shortcomings' as a man. I think of myself as a woman because I feel like one.

Something that Mystick said early in thisa post is that I might have a hormone inbalance. If I do, do I have the transgender feelings because of the inbalance, or the inbalance because of the transgender feelings? (IMG:style_emoticons/default/hmm.gif)

Another thing that floats around in my head is, what if I'm using the excuse that I'm transgendered to explain why I want to be a girl? I don't think that I am, but I can't really be totally certain that I'm not. I really am my worst enemy when it comes to arguing logically with myself.

And what if I never get this figured out? What if I'm 50 and I still haven't figured this out yet? I'm so scared. Because of this doubt, this doubt makes me so uneasy.....and because of what I'll have to go thru for the rest of my life if what I feel about myself is indeed true. I don't know. Sometimes I think I think too much...... (IMG:style_emoticons/default/blowup.gif) ~ Jenny *Has a headache and the wind outside is blowing like crazy and I wish I had more chicken fried rice*