Energy Depletion Options

Hey peeps!

I have noticed a rather unusual thing that happens to me sometimes. It may take a bit of explaining so 'bear with' (IMG:style_emoticons/default/bigwink.gif)

Whenever I feel the need to do magick, I feel this emotion of contentment and joy engulfing my heart. This is the energy I use to invoke entities or do any other sort of magickal act. The problem is whenever I can't feel the energy, my magick doesn't work! Ever! This feeling comes and goes (as it pleases apparently). The thing is I suffer with depression and anxiety and have done most of my life, so feelings of joy are not always present even when the need/will to do magick is. Could it be a side-affect of my depression? Will I have to live with the fact that sometimes, I just won't physically be able to perform magick? As if my connection is temporarily cut-off somehow?

Another theory I have is that I use up all my magickal energy in one invocation and then experience a kind of 'come down' where I feel empty of those feelings for a few days.

Any theories would be grately appreciated.

Being that I too suffer from similar disorders this is right up my alley. To emphisis on Vagrant Dreamer's last paragraph, you can control depression and anxiety. If you eat right, you get enough excersice, plenty of sleep, can mannage your day to day stress and treat yourself to rewards when you deserve them you can stay in control of physical symptoms. If you can understand your personal psychology then you can manage the mental causes. What you should do is figure out what emotional factors are going on within yourself and find a positive way to express them. Introspection is key here. When you feel down or anxious stop and take a moment to ask yourself what are you thinking? By identifying any negative thoughts you can say to yourself "no these things are not true" and work to correct your "stinking thinking" as my psyche teacher would say. If you just feel the blues get online and blog or call a friend and say "man I feel like shit" and get into it, express yourself. If nothing else finding a good comedy or tv show can lighten your mood as well. Doing these things is like unclogging a drain. You should notice that your energy flows more fluidly through you. And this means that you're controling your own issues. This doesn't mean that you won't feel bad again but you know you can deal with them well enough that finding the energy to preform your magick should rarely be a problem.

If possible I would avoid certain things like too much coffee or pop, alcohol, cigarettes and anti-depressants. They only serve to mask the symptoms and neither fixes anything. The stimulants can increase your anxiety, the booze can do the same for the depression and the anti-depressants make you dependant upon them. Some also have nasty side affects. These things do not promote a healthy flow of energy either. The biggest part to beating depression and anxiety is living healthy - mentally, physically and spiritually.

Also realize that everybody has their good days and bad that can affect how well they function in general, let alone work with their craft.