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I am trying to Identify a certain deity/entity/group/astral culture/pantheon (choose any/all) that fits the description of the following abstract elements. Be careful, it's somewhat jumbled, because I know -what- I am looking for, but don't know -how-, -who-, or -where-!

Is as follows:

-Dark, but benevolent and good, sorta the same feel one gets from a crimson twilight on halloween, in a victorian neighborhood, with the smell of burning wood from various fireplaces surround you. A faint smell of vanilla fills your nostrils. (this is the most blatant and accurate description I could express)
-A "Gentle Shade" energy, if you will.
-Feminine aspect of such is best characterized by Gothic Lolitas, and Male aspect best characterized as "Cloak and Dagger poet."
-Very gentle.
-Not very much into the "tough love," and sarcasm/smartassness is NOT a tenet.
-Stands more for more of a developmental nurturing sanctuary and safe-haven rather than for hard-knock education.
-A gentle grace and beauty.
-If there was an element/flavor/type to this energy which is used, I would say either "Twilight" or "Cosmic," perhaps both.

Any Ideas where to start looking for what I seek? Is it a person? Is it a place? Is it an object? A God(dess)? Perhaps a time? Is it the unknown itself (now thats just TOO abstract and in the clouds!)?

(ALTERNATE) Or, could it be that such a combination of characteristics has never been discovered, and that I need to start an astral domain of my own where this is a reality?

looks like i hit the camphor on the nose, so lets see about the platinum - hmmm - 'dear heart be mine' huh?, that's just weird - 'precious and few' - very strange - sounds like it wants to spend some quality time with you, even a romantic time

could this be the other half of your full nature (like if youre a guy then the feminie half/the 'other side of the brain"?) wanting to get together? or a past life maybe?

cool! whatever it is its very attached to you

Noted, and very much so. I completely agree with the feelings of that...

A problem, though, is this morning as I was breathing relaxingly, some suppressed anger arose. When it breathed, it felt like the breathing pattern of the Predator/a tiger or some other beast. It wants revenge for those who have not acknowledged him/it, and feels guilty and sad when I go with the opinion of those against me. EX: "You're just doing that to look cool." - little brother, 8 years ago. I wanted to break his face in!

This force seems to be unconscious, and after a meditation, realized the following:

-Unconscience wants security of house, home, and heart.
-Subconscience wants a girlfriend/mate/consort/lover
-Conscience (I) deem(s) it most logical that with all aspects of my personal character, beliefs, lifestyle, sociological imagination/construct/dynamic that I will fit in better living as a foreigner in Japan. Justification: "Better to be accepted as an outsider than to be dejected and broken as an insider."
-Conscious plan: Teach in Japan to accomplish goal of conscious and unconscious calm, but subconscience will be left unfulfilled, in which it will have the stable foundation to try and fill in the gap. With a support system of unconscious material needs met, and conscious know-how applied, there is a high probability that the subconscience will function/expand/solve itself at a much better applied level.

However, I wonder how is it that this plan runs in tandem with my spiritual function (rhetorical question)? I know that there is an "Elegant gothic" culture in Japan, and that there are "EGG (Elegant Gothic Gentlemen)" as well as "EGL (Elegant Gothic Lolita)." My justification at that point is that even though many "if's" and "when's" are put into a certain order, the outcome when meditated on comes out the same in the equation. But, that just describes the dynamic of bridging the gap. I know that much.

Taking this into perspective, I wonder if it is just a matter of 1) time and 2) at least KNOWING what I am looking for that will determine, in the end, my success.

As I said in an earlier post, ya know...

"Realize, Conceive, Accept, Excecute"

Now, to address the platinum gate spiritual imaginative construct signifigance (sorry for being so wordy!), I wonder, by stretch of romance and imagination, that there is indeed perhaps if not an entity, but maybe another psychic human trying to find me? I would very much like that!!

I guess I am hoping for that because I kept trying to put myself out on the line for love, and that never worked. In my experience as it applies to myself, I had to let it come to me. I like it better that way; it shows a person is willing to sacrifice who they are just for love. In that respect, I feel prompted to reciprocate such passionate devotion. What's more... the other would know that I work with such dynamic, thus it builds a good foundation of trust.

*looks up, reviews my post*

GOD, I LOVE INTELLECTUALISM!!

...sorry.

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This post has been edited by WyrdScience: Feb 14 2007, 09:10 AM