I Implore You~ Options

I read on the topic description that it said "Healing" the implication being that one should come here for advice on healing; thus I present my situation to you for advice or recommendations.
For the past while I've been finding myself increasingly sliding down a slippery slope to a place I don't want to be, I feel somewhat unconnected to my spiritual nature, I find myself questioning my intelligence and find my energy dropping to painfully low levels - so much so I am over-sleeping on weekends or days off until four or five in the afternoon. Add to which there's an impending sense of lacking motivation, focus and any sort of intent in my life.
I know this sounds classic teenage depression, but I have hit my 20's and I feel that there's something dragging me down and if I don't find some method to break away from it I'm gonna end up taking a nose-dive into an even worse place than I am currently in.
To be completely honest it feels as if I am 'rotting' inside, decaying. Whenever I examine my body u sing my minds eye, all I see is a constant state of decay - which sometimes disappears - but then often comes back. I have done banishing after banishing but still feel that plug in my body as if everything that I build up is seeping out. I have checked my aura and constantly remove little 'tubes' that stick to it, probably from psychic vampires...but aside from that I need some help in how the hell I can get all of that away from me in the most efficient and powerful manner. I did kundalini for a while, but the lack of results I felt just lost my interest in that also.
Please for the love of God suggest something.

This post has been edited by uchih: Feb 19 2007, 04:25 PM

Hi Uchih!

It sounds like you might be fighting an inner battle. From what you say, your heart doesn't agree with your current lifestyle. Each chakra tends to activate on its own at certain times of our lives. Starting with puberty (root chakra activation), our chakras take turns having the spotlight. This is why most highschoolers are so egotistical. The ego gets its turn from about 16-20. Then comes the heart chakra. Any insincerity you have toward your life goals is going to conflict in your mind. I suggest you focus inward on your heart, not on your body. Focus on what is timeless. Our bodies are in a constantly decomposing and rejuvinating. Feeling depressed tends to make you focus on the decay.

If there truely isn't anybody in your life psychically forcing those feelings on you, then I suggest self relfection. Intense, honest, ego-less self reflection. Never underestimate the power of your soul to push your self in the right direction. And don't underestimate the power of a good friend either. Maybe opening up to another will help?