Bad Karma And Lrbp? Options

I wonder if anyone could help me to understand this: for most of my life I have been interested in spiritual advancement and exploration which eventually lead me to attempting to follow the Golden Dawn studies for Neophytes about three years ago. One day as i was in the expanding my aura in the Middle Pillar I suddenly felt as though a dark area (corresponding to a location in a part of my back physically) kind of ruptured, I know that sounds crazy but I'm kind of psychic and sometimes pick up on odd things, and the next day I received a massive dose of what I can only describe as "bad karma" which was so traumatic it brought my life to a hold, not just my studies.
I felt almost as though I was being warned off from my explorations.
Recently though, I got my life back on track, I thought maybe I was a little paranoid interpreting the experience as a warning and decided to resume my studies, I performed LRBP once as a warm up and it didn't just feel good it was blissful, though I did feel I had once again found the "dark area". Within two days, again i had an extremely bad experience in my life.
I assure you my intentions have been as pure as I can consciously guarentee as regards my reasons for pursuing this path, so is this:
A warning?
Just a purification of my aura and the bad experiences are essential for my spiritual evolution?
A coincidence?
Anyone any similar experiences? Any Advice?

Greetings,

I think you experience was a valid one. Especially since it seems to have manifested in your physical life. I would not let the experience cause dismay.

I Buddhism emanating the female deity Tara’s name is supposed to erase bad karma. She is comparable to the Buddhist Quan Yin the mother of compassion. There are actually two Taras a red one and a green one. They grew from tear drops of the Buddha.

I tried emanating her name long ago and I had an experience similar to your own. I felt something rip out of me. I think perhaps it was guilt for past evil deeds which I was letting go of.

If you are doing a banishing ritual and something seems to rip out of you it is logical to assume that it was something unwanted or bad. You experienced bad emotion as it left. Then for a brief period perhaps three days you were feeling kind of empty. I bet that by a week or two later you were feeling much better than before?

I would regard it as a good thing and not a bad one.

Peace!