Bad Karma And Lrbp? Options

I wonder if anyone could help me to understand this: for most of my life I have been interested in spiritual advancement and exploration which eventually lead me to attempting to follow the Golden Dawn studies for Neophytes about three years ago. One day as i was in the expanding my aura in the Middle Pillar I suddenly felt as though a dark area (corresponding to a location in a part of my back physically) kind of ruptured, I know that sounds crazy but I'm kind of psychic and sometimes pick up on odd things, and the next day I received a massive dose of what I can only describe as "bad karma" which was so traumatic it brought my life to a hold, not just my studies.
I felt almost as though I was being warned off from my explorations.
Recently though, I got my life back on track, I thought maybe I was a little paranoid interpreting the experience as a warning and decided to resume my studies, I performed LRBP once as a warm up and it didn't just feel good it was blissful, though I did feel I had once again found the "dark area". Within two days, again i had an extremely bad experience in my life.
I assure you my intentions have been as pure as I can consciously guarentee as regards my reasons for pursuing this path, so is this:
A warning?
Just a purification of my aura and the bad experiences are essential for my spiritual evolution?
A coincidence?
Anyone any similar experiences? Any Advice?

Good info edunpanna.tara is also a tantrik shakti,one of the 7 powerful shaktis.the tantriks,due to their relation to the quilippoth work differently then the other divinities.they shock you,scare you,beat you into realisation and enlightenment.the craziest form of tough love as you can put it.while the other hindu divinities teach you slowly the method to trap water,then the easiest way to swim to began with, and then finally follow you into the water and swim together with you, the tantrik shaktis on the other hand will push you into a river of crocodiles infested waters and wait for you at the other end of the river.

to the starter of the topic,i have my own opinions on what you are experiencing.but take it with a grain of salt as its isnt verifiable fact,just an opinion of mine.i believe you have worked the middle pillar ritual before but let it go before mastering it.the ritual affects your chakras greatly and are also the domain of the kundalini snake at the back of your spine.highle effective magick occurs when body mind and spirit join together and are all developed equally.i would recommend kriya yoga together with your rituals and some prana proper breathing tecniques.god bless.

Good info edunpanna.tara is also a tantrik shakti,one of the 7 powerful shaktis.the tantriks,due to their relation to the quilippoth work differently then the other divinities.they shock you,scare you,beat you into realisation and enlightenment.the craziest form of tough love as you can put it.while the other hindu divinities teach you slowly the method to trap water,then the easiest way to swim to began with, and then finally follow you into the water and swim together with you, the tantrik shaktis on the other hand will push you into a river of crocodiles infested waters and wait for you at the other end of the river.

to the starter of the topic,i have my own opinions on what you are experiencing.but take it with a grain of salt as its isnt verifiable fact,just an opinion of mine.i believe you have worked the middle pillar ritual before but let it go before mastering it.the ritual affects your chakras greatly and are also the domain of the kundalini snake at the back of your spine.highle effective magick occurs when body mind and spirit join together and are all developed equally.i would recommend kriya yoga together with your rituals and some prana proper breathing tecniques.god bless.

Thanks for the advice, it certainly felt like tough love! The first time I went through the whole "why me?!" routine, the second time I was more calm and curious as to the meaning of it all.
I admit I failed miserably if it was a test, but I feel a lot stronger now with the advice and opinions I have received so kindly here!
I was practicing the 4x4 breath as recommended by the Golden Dawn.

Peace