Meditation is not easy, it's not relaxing it never was, it's pure torture.
After meditating you feel extremely relaxed, but during meditation every second seems like an hour.
Sure, after a while this effect goes away, and you enter a tranquil and relaxed state of mind, most wonderfull this is. But the first hour is all torture and pain, And depending on your concentration and focus you might or might not get into the second fase and beyond.
You have to set yourself a time. Now i will meditate for 40 minutes, you have to say to yourself. Then you sit down and start meditating, you can not allow yourself to move!!! You have to try to think about nothing besides your breath. Under no circumstances should you rise from your meditation before your set time is over!!!!! If you tell yourself to meditate for 40 minutes you will do exactly 40 minutes, even if you feel extremely uncomfortable once you get started.
You will not move for nothing!!! If the phone rings, ignore it!! If there is somebody at the door, just keep focused on your breath, do not rise yourself for it!! Only if your house burns down or you are in any kind of mortal danger should you get up.
It is unpleasant, your mind gets bored quickly, the mind wants to play or do something else that is not boring.I even find my mind wanting to do things i usually dislike. The mind will try to use anything as an excuse to get up and do something else.
Our weak minds do not like meditation!! Its all about not giving up, and not listining to your childish minds complains.
Most people just sit down for a while, thinking about stuff, playing with their thoughs, and think they are meditating. They have never meditated! They are contemplating on their thoughts, wich is a good thing to do also. But it is not meditation, and it has completely different results.
Perhaps you will be one of us few that do truly meditate.
Also, beware of texts on the internet. There are many people that confuse contemplation with meditation. Contemplation is easy and the rewards are small, meditation is hard to do correctly, and its rewards are great.
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In LVX, Frater A.V.I.A.F.
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