The Necronomicon... Chooses It's Own? Options

I've been trying every night to perform a Wiccan ritual, but every night it gets ruined because I have no privacy, and I can't get the Necronomicon out my mind. I carry the Spellbook for the heck of it. Is it a choice anymore whether I want to work with the Necronomicon or not?

By the way, I have this pince cone sitting here on my desk that came out of nowhere apparently... Maybe from one of my grandmother's winter decorations, but it's just sitting here...

By the way, I almost forgot to mention that two or three nights ago I heard a voice in the room... It spoke, twice, but I had no idea what it said... Somewhat of a jumble...

I'm a little reluctant though, to go all out on a system... What is this amazing power?

This post has been edited by ObsidianLF: Nov 30 2006, 04:37 PM

Well First and foremost allow me to to say hello, Greeting all around, and thank you for any direction that you may have to offer. With that being said allow me to attempt to get to the point here. Most of this is probaly going to come out as misguided rants I assure you in my head as i type this it makes no sense either.

When i first picked up this little black book I think i was 16 maybe 17 years old. With out going back to that point in time I agree whole heartily with the posts the other day that we are chosen. I can't make to much sense as to why / how but we are chosen. I think i was probally 21 when i finally put the book down. Actually I gave it / felt compelled to give it to a dear friend. Thought he may get more use out of it than I did myself. Well here I am 6 years from then and am finding myself once again drawn to this path. I have tried various different things in those 6 years of time. None of which have left me feeling complete. I guess all and all it kind pisses me off that after all these years I AM back at the beginning were I started. --->The problem i'm having is in the indecsion of picking it back up. When I stoped practicing last time life wasn't to peachy afterwords. From that date till now my energy level has been almost none existant. I can only attest this to the gods being angry with me. (Atleast They remembered me). Now last time I practiced I did'nt do things by the book. I considered myself to be fairly competent in "Magik" at the time and felt some of the methods were for beginers. So now if I dive back into this will I suffer any set backs? Will my watcher return? I don't know But i feel the notion to press forward. Now that I am abit older and more Mature atleast Id hope.

Questions that I can think of.

1. Should I or Should I not pick this back up?

2. If I do will I suffer any "negetivity" from my previous attempts?

3. Will my watcher Return?

4. Why do I / we always end up were we started?

Now I can probally come to conclusion to the majority of these question. I wanted to share my experiences with you all to some degree. I also wanted to see if maybe others have Traveled a similar path that might have advice.

Secondly I have another friend that wishes to start involving himself in the Necronomicon / Occult. He wants me to teach him what I know. The only problem I have is he has little or no desire to do his homework. I.E. Buy the book or try any meditation . I know he has the ability or he wouldn't have asked. I want him to learn but i also want him to not screw things up how i did the first go around. I just refuse to spoon feed him. I can't invision there being anything in the Necro that we both could be present for. It always seemed a very personal and solitude practice. How do I help Him help himself ?

Thanks again for your time and you thoughts.

This post has been edited by nineofzero: May 29 2007, 01:23 AM