Introducing...., al_zaine Options

Hey there SMF Folks.
My names Al, and I came across this forum some how, I can't actually remember how lol. I was looking into the Necronomicon and found the site through that. At the moment I'd say that is my main interest, I just seems to be the only thing on my mind scine first reading it.
Just a quick overview of my general interests.... Knowledge! Knowledge about existence...why we exist, why the universe exists.... another interest is its polarity, non-existence... but its abit difficult to find knowledge about a non-existing "THING".
I have my own beliefs but i'm open to other peoples views and I hardly take offence to anyone expressing their views.
I first found the joy of seeking Knowledge and Truth more specific when looking into the 'alien agenda' with the politics( government agents and abductions)... but this was meerly and intro to what I was really seeking. Throughout my studying I have came across the conspiracy theories and the religious corruption and alot of spirituality. But I love the occult and I wish I were a sorcerer or just someone who is limitless in potential, as we all should be.
The Nec, mainly the book of gates, covers alot of what i'm interested in.
I could go on and on about what things interest me and the things that don't but hopefully through my posts, you can see the things I like and the things I don't.
Please ask any questions.
Al.

Ive been contemplating alot about life as we know it, or as I know it lol. One of the main area's of my study has been with the mind and consciousness. I had a daunting thought about consciousness while contemplating the senses and their effects on consciousness.
For example, I was wondering whether a deaf person had internal dialogue, but they've never heard they voice so they surely wouldn't have internal dialogue in the form of sound. I thought that they might have visual dialogue instead, I found a forum where the question was brought up and someone said that the see the sign language they've learned. This brought me onto blind people. If you were to ask a blind person what they see, they'll probably see they see nothing. Well try describing nothing, one would think its all blackness, but what is black, describe it to me, any colour infact, describe the colour. How can one describe hot and cold bright and dark..... without the senses what remains. I was one who believed that when the body die's consciousness is the only thing that will remain but now i'm not so sure.
Any comments on this would be great because theres alot more to it but I need to be promted for questions to answer to draw out those deeper thoughts.
Al