Paradigm Shifting, To make my reality a bit more relaxing Options

So I almost tried it all: DIY Spirit Journeys, Minor Alchemy, Self Hypnotism, Mantras, Sutras, Spells, Mirror Affirmation, and nothing seemed to help.

Before I left for El Salvador, I managed to find in the trunk of my car a little pass-out style pamphlet of Nichiren Sect Buddhism that spoke of the 10 worlds as 10 views of reality, the ones centered around love and peace higher that the others. Specifically, it said that chanting the lotus sutra and "Namu-Myoho-Renge-Kyo" raised the state of being, but nothing seemed to help there.

After some more introspection, I found that indeed I had a selfish, egoistic paradigm of anger centered around my thirst for power, just so I could use that power to improve my life condition as I see fit. My problem was my view of reality.

I saw this as a problem, and tried to find ways to change my general paradigm of reality. If one wants to use Nichiren Buddhism as a tool for explaining, imagine the paradigm of anger being just below the paradigm of tranquility. Tranquility is, according to them, a state where everything is calm, but one is very vulnerable to outside influences. I still find this unsatisfactory, and look to the next, Rapture. Rapture was defined as your view of reality when something great spontaneously happens to you, but is fleeting, and soon reverts back to tranquility.

My harmful paradigm is also bad because as I observed, even though I can epistomize and theorize about magick to the point where it can make sense to an open skeptic, I still can´t pull off any real spellwork until i´ve changed for the better. Imagine if I had my "magick license" suspended until I earn my energy back.

Any ideas on how to change my paradigm progressively, so that I can get myself out of this rut? How do I "earn" my magick back?

Maybe this is the beginning of your dark night my friend. There is a wave that most of us have to ride out, the bottom being very "uneventful". As the path progresses the wave gets smaller more tolerable and also controlled.

Maybe this is the beginning of your dark night my friend. There is a wave that most of us have to ride out, the bottom being very "uneventful". As the path progresses the wave gets smaller more tolerable and also controlled.

¡Ha ha! This has been going on for a year now, and just recently, I managed to have it make sense. Remember all those useless posts I used to make that just epistomized and rehashed my situation? Well, this is another, but each time, I get a little more accurate, as well as a little mroe relaxed. The worst of it was a -Hell- Paradigm I managed to survive through, during 2006.

The Celts Have a name for "Sacred utterance" of the existence through a universal sound....something like "Maron Dor" Or something like that. After reading The Mist Filled Path by Frank MacEowen, the description of "forgetting the song" made an exact description of my condition.

Take and inventory of every belief you hold, very much akin to franz bardon's theory of the magick mirror, and go from there. WHen you can lay everything out clearly and concisely, it's easier to pick one, transmute it into something better, and move on, piece by piece.

I pray for blessings from the SM Community that I have the ability to recall all my harmful views and precepts, as many were forgotten and repressed into my deep psyche. I will be working on that during my work down here in El Salvador.

For what its worth....I believe your stated awareness of your condition is proof you are well on your way to breakthrough...My advice to you is to remember the chaos "mantra"
"Nothing is True, Everything is Permitted"

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