QUOTE(The Sorceress @ Jul 7 2007, 11:30 PM)
Start small (You're just starting out.)
I wouldn't try tackling the goetia just yet. It's best to have a strong background in the basics (i.e., the LBRP.)
Don't be so hard on yourself. (IMG:
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As I said, you're just starting out. Give yourself some time to develop (After all, Rome wasn't built in a day.)
I would go with what "The Sorceress" said, Start with the Pentagram rituals or even something lower than that, i.e. something like folk magick (I started out with Gypsy Folk magick) Work your way up into goetia, I have been practicing magick since age twelve, now at fifteen I still have not done goetia, Rome wasn't built in a day.
If you doubt you can do the magick, don't try it, it won't work, or worse it will work and screw you over. go back and studdy some more then start practicing a lower level magick.
Blessings.