Roman Catholic Worried... Options

As you can tell from the topic title, all this stuff interests me and I'd like to be able to perform some of it, but everything about the Golden Dawn, Hermeticism, and Ceremonial Magick in general tends to freak me out. I'm a Roman Catholic and I'm obscenely worried about my spiritual self getting into some trouble by doing this stuff. Are there any 'Judeo-Christian' roots to these rituals? I mean it doesn't take a lot to notice the archangels and God's names in the rituals, but seeing videos of people using sinister voices and generally acting like they want to be Lucifer's best friend during said rituals is a little worrisome.

If anyone has any advice for me I'd really appreciate it. I want to be closer with my HGA and thereby God by doing a little magick everyday, I desperately want Him to work through me, but what if unwittingly I allow myself to be worked by an entity with less than amiable goals? Etc., etc.

Thanks in advance..

I mean wow. I just came back to this site, (there's that cycle I was talking about at work,) and see the thread I began still on the first page. There's so much good information and advice here I don't really know where to begin. I don't even know if I should. Suffice it to say I found Extinctionspasm's contribution the most inspiring. I just feel like I have a few blocks that kind of re-direct my energy into things that shouldn't be receiving energy. That's why I intimated that I wanted God to work through me. That and I have no problem whatsoever in being some kind of instrument of His will.

I do need to become more aware of that power that seems to lie dormant in all of us.

I really do appreciate everything that's been written here. I am exhausted right now however, and need to reboot. Tomorrow I think I will be able to respond to those posts I found particularly helpful!! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif):D