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greenmonkey
post Jul 21 2007, 01:55 AM
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Hello, I'm a diagnosed schizophrenic and was wondering if anybody else is, or has experience dealing with a schizophrenic in their lifetime. I started this topic because since I was 16 I've been trapped in my own reality. I'm looking for methods or techniques for dealing with different symptoms like; fear that somebody is reading your mind, talking to the radio or television, hearing voices, and overall paranoia. I'm now 20 years old and have accomplished nothing in my life because I've let my illness get the best of me. The only achievement I've made since my first psychotic episode is graduating from high school. I'm really just looking for ways, other than taking medication, too stop my thoughts or subconscious mind from what seems to me as being "broadcast" to people and technology around me. My main problem is the fear that my mind is being read. Hopefully some of you have some advice for me; other than wearing a tinfoil hat, jk. I'm currently taking Zyprexa and Geodon if you were wondering what my meds were. Thanks in advance.

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post Jul 24 2007, 12:57 PM
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Thanks for the replies, I started meditating about 1 year ago during my worst episode mentally, surprisingly my spirit side was totally under control. I did white void meditation and had a spiritual breakthrough,which I posted in the dream works forum awhile ago, and filtered and programmed all my thoughts and mind set in a C/C++ and scripting manner. My delusions were totally out of wack, I thought my family members had been replaced by clones and all sorts of crazy stuff. I don't meditate too much anymore because I usually go through nonstop psychotic imagery in my mind. I use to be into gore and snuff as a teenager; I even thought of going into mortuary science at one time. Now that stuff brings out a dark side of me and the memories meditation bring up feed it. I also forgot to mention, that when I'm depressed or paranoid I suffer from "night terrors." When falling asleep I have an out of body experience and see through something else's eyes. Then I usually am shocked back to consciousness and fall asleep shortly after. Also at time when trying to sleep I am visited by a dark spirit; I lose all control of my mind, I repeat the same thought repeatedly in monotone, my whole body is paralyzed except my eyes and I sometimes feel physical pain when it happens. This I think is a Vampiric demon that I once tried banishing from my house. It seems to feed off my fear and depression. Anyways I'll look into different ways to meditate and probably do the LBRP before I meditate. Is there anyway to clear the triggers and such that I've already done to my subconscious, so I can start over on controlling my thoughts?

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greenmonkey   Living With Schizophrenia?   Jul 21 2007, 01:55 AM
Slayden   I want to be mean and say "Look behind you...   Jul 21 2007, 02:40 AM
al_zaine   Don't get it twisted, Schizophrenia is not a c...   Jul 21 2007, 06:53 AM
Slayden   Don't get it twisted, Schizophrenia is not a c...   Jul 22 2007, 01:14 AM
Vagrant Dreamer   I will first say that I am not a psychologist, and...   Jul 22 2007, 04:39 AM
53rdspirit   Interesting. How many famous/accomplished occultis...   Jul 21 2007, 09:40 AM
Seeuzin   Hello =) I haven't introduced myself on this ...   Jul 23 2007, 07:07 PM
Seeuzin   Couldn't figure out how to edit my post, but I...   Jul 24 2007, 12:10 PM
al_zaine   Read the whole thing. ...a cursed [i]GIFT with be...   Jul 25 2007, 05:43 AM
Xenomancer   Something to consider: If anyone really could read...   Jul 25 2007, 02:15 PM
greenmonkey   Question, is Left Hand Path black magic or "s...   Jul 25 2007, 10:10 PM
NecroReaper   Question, is Left Hand Path black magic or "s...   Jul 26 2007, 09:01 AM
Slayden   LHP doesn't HAVE to involve magick of any sort...   Jul 27 2007, 04:03 AM
Kutulu   Ha ha ha, you just basically said that LHP is mean...   Jul 31 2007, 07:17 AM
Acid09   Only a professional can really help you. I imagin...   Jul 26 2007, 05:35 PM
greenmonkey   Some also describe schizophrenia as a person havin...   Jul 29 2007, 12:42 PM
Acid09   http://www.spiritreleasement.org/intro/soulintro.h...   Jul 30 2007, 04:58 PM
Nightshade   Greetings Greenmonkey. I don't have Schizophr...   Aug 9 2007, 12:28 AM

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