Duality Options

What attitude should I have toward duality? It has long been a question in my mind.
I've try to meditate on this topic and finally accept the idea of "Good is evil ; Evil is good."

I try to embrace both the light and the dark. Problems came here.
When I heard the others' malice words, saw some "improper act", I force myself to stop criticising and resisting but embrace them, but headache had develeped whenever I do that, I can feel the "negative thoughts" fogging and causing the pain inside my head . A week ago, I even got a fever /_\ . I made effort to 'produce' some positive emotion, I felt both happy and woe at the same time, sound weird? Now, I just stop awaring of the thoughts and feel better now. However, I want to confront the idea of duality. Could you guys give me some advises and your point of view over duality ?

My learning process is also affected, as my strifing toward my goals, doing meditations, during rituals, the opposite results ' pop out' , annoying and distucbing me. If I do the same way and accept it, I will fail.And if I accept that fail means success, I will fail ! What should I do ?

And I heard that, the world is in equilibrium, because there are the good and the evil are balancing each other.If I develop myself totally toward the good side, will there be anything evil opposing aginst it in my own system? Also, I wanna ask, is that mean the god is satan? or satan is only an aspect of god ? As the god is everything.

I understand what you're saying, but there is a point when such consepts are taken to ridiculous extremes and it goes from philosophy to existentialism. Existentialism is the belief that you don't exist unless I say you do, that I'm not really typing this message, and dammit because it's what I believe that automaticly means it is true. Just try to argue with me, you nonexistant filament of my hallucination!

Get it?

I understand what you're saying, but there is a point when such consepts are taken to ridiculous extremes and it goes from philosophy to existentialism. Existentialism is the belief that you don't exist unless I say you do, that I'm not really typing this message, and dammit because it's what I believe that automaticly means it is true. Just try to argue with me, you nonexistant filament of my hallucination!

Get it?

Then why are you not paying my bills? (IMG:style_emoticons/default/laugh.gif)

From my personal belief system, and I have no issue with others having theirs, we are all just hallucinations of each other, from the ALL. We exist in the mind of the ALL and think we are separate and dual.

Take it back to justified or unjustified killing, a duality, this symptom of consciousness. From a stand point of my separateness with the knowledge that we are whole or one I think it is wrong to kill any human for I am killing a part of myself. At the same time knowing that few other people view this existence as I do and are only capable of seeing duality and will gladly kill me for what ever motivation, I will take their material existence to preserve mine. Hence I own a .45 and have a concealed carry permit. So it is my personal philosophy to try to live "in the world, but not of the world," and I try not to participate in the petty dualities of the world. On the other hand I am not a pacifist and do not see a problem with a bad apple being removed from the bunch.