A quick history: I'm quite new to chaos magic but practised another type of my very own eclectic voudou-influenced sishsash for years before I lost faith in magic alltogether and lived as an atheist for a couple of years. Now I'm trying to work out my way back into being a practising magician, since I lately had a revelation of sorts. Here goes: the reason I decided that magic simply doesn't work for me was after I spent a lot of time trying to solve a problem I had. I don't want to specify this problem but it had to do with something that was very important to me. Since I thirsted for results here a lot more than I had in any of the smaller (and succesfull) workings that I had done earlier failure was enough of a disappointment that I just stopped alltogether. So, why am I starting again? Simple: I had a dream about this problem, and when recalling it later I realised that all the other dreams I have had on it all show things the way they are, not like they were or should be. My mind wants this to be the situation, so I subconsciously shot myself in the foot when trying to magically change it. I even know why.

Could anyone suggest a method of working around this or something? I've tried meditating on the issue but haven't been very successfull.