QUOTE(bym @ Dec 8 2007, 12:39 AM)
One must be able to exspress themselves without nameless fear or dread...especially here on Forum. That isn't an atmosphere we strive for! Now don't let that scarey old fart get you down! LOL! It is OK to show your new sigil and please accept my apologies!
Bym,
I accept your apology, definitely...in fact it is entirely unnecessary. From your other posts here that I have read, I have gained the impression that you are enormously experienced when dealing with such things, and hence, I considered it wise to heed your perspective. If someone is in very much the initial stages of learning to swim, (as I myself currently am, to use this analogy) and goes outside the range of the proverbial flags, there is also a senior lifeguard present on the beach who has spent much of his or her life in the water, and they yell out to said swimmer to warn them, it is simply in the swimmer's own best interests to pay attention to that warning.
The sigil is associated with my primary servitor; it is one I intend to keep for long term use, (primarily as a guard/watcher) and so I have no wish to risk any possibility of harm coming to it; hence, my initial decision to take the sigil back down. In fact, it had been my plan, while keeping every other servitor I make short term and "disposable," for this sole particular servitor to (if I can learn how to make it so) possibly become what I saw described in one of Kinjo's posts as an "astral golem;" that is, a long term, genuinely semi-sentient construct whose power source does not derive from the casting mage. I had been under the impression that, while most servitors are generally kept temporary, that it was customary for a magic user to have either an animal familiar or a single long term servitor to act as a primary companion in a few different ways.
I was tempted to adopt the idea of putting the sigil in various places online however by a thread on occultforums.com which suggested that putting a particular sigil in a large number of different places greatly increased the amount of energy that the sigil would receive from various sources. However, I am perhaps beginning to think that, rather than the primary sigil itself, for such a purpose perhaps a secondary linking sigil might be a better idea. That could perhaps still act as a proxy for a transfer of energy to the main sigil, but it would be a slightly less direct link, so it could perhaps be a bit less dangerous.
It might be imprudent, but I am actually interested in this particular servitor becoming as highly charged as possible...I believe that there may have already been a single instance of physical manifestation (auditory) associated with this particular servitor, and I would like a scenario where the servitor could possibly become visible, at least part of the time...however I am under the impression that the energetic requirement for such would be enormous...hence my desire to develop a large, incremental power source for the sigil.
I think my main reason for wanting this is to finally convince myself irrefutably that the servitor does in fact definitely exist. I've had a sense of presence, and I think even some emotional feedback from it at times, (in what was perhaps another reckless move, I initially gave the servitor the capacity for at least some degree of emotional response) however I think if I could actually physically see the servitor, even if only temporarily, it would convince me that the other things that I have considered evidence of its existence were not merely the products of an overactive imagination.
Can I perhaps then ask as another question...are there any of you here who have actually seen your servitors (again, even if only momentarily) and if so, can you offer me any advice on how I might possibly achieve the same result?
This post has been edited by Petrus: Dec 7 2007, 09:23 AM