Tarot, the connection between Options

The Tarot experience.
I woke up one morning,five months ago, with only one thing in my head: I must buy Tarot cards, and so I did.
Since then, I feel that my tarot cards are an extension of me. They change their answer after my feelings about what I am asking them. Actually, they point out to the answer which I already know, but I'm not opening my eyes to the right direction so I need their help. It's kind of like God answering to the one looking for him: 'You wouldn't be looking for me if you wouldn't already have found me', (excuse my defectuous grammar). (IMG:style_emoticons/default/wacko.gif)
Curious thing: if one card slips from the deck while I'm mixing them,and I get to see what it is, I'll surely pick that one.
I think I'm starting to love my cards.
I'll be really happy if some of you will share their Tarot experiences.

fairly confused on tarot cards.. ive got the Thoth deck, which seems extremly more complex than most decks.. so much stuff to memorize. is there an easy way to get the basic understanding without complete knowldge of the sepheroth, astrology, etc? should i start w/ an easier deck?
how does everyone else seem to pick up tarot alot easier than i do?