Problems when trying to meditate Options

Dear members,

I hope that any of you can give me some help or advice on how to prevent the following from happening, immidiately when I try to meditate(just closed my eyes):

Left side of the head feels of sick, itchy and hardened
Pain in the forhead, right between my eyes, a little higher
Can never relax, when I am relaxing I get an ill feeling over my whole body. (It heathens up extremely!)

What is the problem and what can I do about it?

-Dave

Excersize: Concious Confusion as a Healing Trance Technique

Find the time and space for a 10 minute trance. Sit down comfortably. Breathe deeply. Breathe into your stomach, and just concentrate on your breathing for a while. Feel how your breat flows into your hands, your palms, and how your blood pulsates, how all your attention become the protaganists of the trance game. Become aware of how different the two sides of your body and your left and right hand feel. Which hand feels stronger, healthier, more confident, better? Which hand is confused and indecisive, lazy, dark, oassive, or even paralysed? Sometimes the differences are clearly recognizable, and sometimes they aren't.
Then assign to the stronger hand the role of the "good hand". This hand contains all your potential for clarification, for finding solutions and making right decisions. Now imagine a set of scales: The potential is on one side, and the problem is on the other. Instead of a problem, it can be a conflict, the feeling of being trapped or stuck, the quandry of not knowing where to turn, the frustration of not being able to get ahead, or feeling powerless to act. Place all your incapability and confusion in the other hand.
Decide strictly which is better and which is worse: the right hand or the left, and all they symbolize. You know that both belong to you, to your situation, to life, just as both hands belong to the body. And now, after you have concentrated fully on the differemces, close your eyes, and keeping them closed, move the palms of your hands toward each other until they meet. Take your time; this is a valuble process, and it is important that you perceive it very consciously.
What we gain from this excersize is the truth that everything somehow belongs and fits together, even if our conciousness cannot grasp how. At first, this exercize is experienced as a process, a kind of approach. Then it changes its status and becomes a condition. Suddenly you feel, you know, that you have arrived at the condition of wholeness. The hands, for better or worse are joined together. This is not a half-hearted compromise but a physical feeling of wholeness. You feel whole and together, even if you are still as confused as you were before. You have an inkling that the confusion represents a transition to a new, higher order. You are also aware of how content it makes you feel to have found at least the physical feeling of unity.
While still pressing your palms together and feeling the intimate unification of both sides, breathe deeply to lock the feeling of oneness deep inside your body.

This post has been edited by Necropolis: May 14 2005, 11:44 PM