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I am trying to Identify a certain deity/entity/group/astral culture/pantheon (choose any/all) that fits the description of the following abstract elements. Be careful, it's somewhat jumbled, because I know -what- I am looking for, but don't know -how-, -who-, or -where-!

Is as follows:

-Dark, but benevolent and good, sorta the same feel one gets from a crimson twilight on halloween, in a victorian neighborhood, with the smell of burning wood from various fireplaces surround you. A faint smell of vanilla fills your nostrils. (this is the most blatant and accurate description I could express)
-A "Gentle Shade" energy, if you will.
-Feminine aspect of such is best characterized by Gothic Lolitas, and Male aspect best characterized as "Cloak and Dagger poet."
-Very gentle.
-Not very much into the "tough love," and sarcasm/smartassness is NOT a tenet.
-Stands more for more of a developmental nurturing sanctuary and safe-haven rather than for hard-knock education.
-A gentle grace and beauty.
-If there was an element/flavor/type to this energy which is used, I would say either "Twilight" or "Cosmic," perhaps both.

Any Ideas where to start looking for what I seek? Is it a person? Is it a place? Is it an object? A God(dess)? Perhaps a time? Is it the unknown itself (now thats just TOO abstract and in the clouds!)?

(ALTERNATE) Or, could it be that such a combination of characteristics has never been discovered, and that I need to start an astral domain of my own where this is a reality?

Wow, I remember when I first posted this, I was in the midnight of my Dark Night of the Soul.

Looking back, it was a result of tuning into multiple frequencies of my own spirit, and I didn't know it.

If we look to ourselves as we are in our mundane everyday existence, we only see one (or only a few) dimension(s) of ourselves.

During this time, I was going through alot of stress, and doing different meditations to help keep a grip on myself in order to know my true purpose in life. Unfortunately, I was trying to hold onto too many things while "Only having two hands." As a result, I opened up a plethora of frequencies and I took in more than I could make sense of. If anything, I did so in ignorant haste. Haste because I wasn't ready to do so, and ignorance because I didn't even know what I was doing, much less how to make sense of any of it. If anything, I could describe it as trying to build castles, or rather, pyramids in the sky. If you subscribe to the Maslow theory, I tried to build a construct of the upper eschelons of my spiritual being without first establishing my need to take care of my own capital gains, my own health, my own habits, my sense of order and ethic, the ability to be enjoyable company to myself and others....the list goes on and on just to say that I had, in the Maslow sense, a "Pyramid Crash."

Of course, one year earlier, I had a complete "Pyramid crash," that took a long time to clean up. What happened during the writing of this first post was an attempt to reconstruct what I knew. Unfortunately, I kept my focus on the "Capstone," in all it's splendour, and not the "cornerstone," which I have recently learned that I need a new one altogether (maybe. I don't know. I am still trying to clean up my mess!).

It's hard to make a temple just out of it's precious jewels. One needs the hard rocks, the overlooked slabs of limestone, and the dense marbles to build the walls and pillars before they decorate their special place with the finest Lapis, Sapphires, and the like.

This took me a year and a half to learn. Learning magick as a mortal can be really hard, especially when you have mortal affairs to attend to. Even more so when they can stress you out and confuse you! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/dots.gif)