Influencing External Vs Internal Change Options

Over the years I seem to have gotten fairly good at using magick to bring about favourable circumstances in my life. Jobs, money, partners, etc. Nothing spectacular, my results could be written off as coincidences but once you get a certain amount of "coincidences" you start to realise that perhaps they aren't really coincidences... But, as a sufferer of mild anxiety and depression, I have often tried to use magick to influence my internal climate, with very little success.

Lately I have been using my daily practice of the LBRP to influence my life. When invoking the archangels, I will talk to them and ask them to grant me small favours... The results have been quite impressive when it comes to external events (one example of many is that I had problems with my feelings for a workmate. It was problematic because I had a boyfriend, and the situation had been bad for quite some time. I asked the archangels for help, and the very same day, he got fired! Which isn't as bad as it sounds for him as he was getting quite tired of wokring there anyway, and from conversations I had with him afterwards it seemed that him getting fired - or rather, being asked to resign, but with good references - had worked out in his favour. This is just one example fo the "coincidences" I've had). Yet I have hardly had any success at all in alleviating my anxiety, depression, or my moderate substance abuse through the use of the LBRP or any magick at all!

Any similar experiences? Advice, theories, etc?

It hink that your main problem seems to be that you are using magick in a backward sort of way. We use our spirits, our minds, and our wills, to focus our intent, do our rituals, and thus create the desired effects. While magick can be used for inner purposes and in fact leads towards such inner purposes in many cases, there is something to be said for focusing and training the mind prior to magickal practice.

Personally, i would suggest a regimen of self-exploration, coupled with a a focus on mediation to clear your mind. In my opinion, if you can clear the mental and emotional clutter, and understand the why behind your mental processes, you will have a lot more luck with improving and exploring your inner spirit.

i have to agree i think that what you might need to do, cassiopeia, is take a look on the inside. i could be wrong on this and if so i apologize, but you strike me as the type of girl that loves to have a lot of things happen around you or maybe your an introvert, but whatever the case you seem to be searching for everything to prove your self worth and uniqueness to yourself instead of looking in the mirror and just accepting what you see now. there is a lot of people i know, know of, etc. that start to delve into magick on a whim of how cool they would be, how different they would be, etc.

these people delve deeper and deeper into it when it starts to work for them. the test the limits more and more and become "Powerful wizards/witches" and end up being able to "control" every aspect of their life and end up being slaves to their addiction aka magick.
the more you find yourself doing that's "unique" the more you find that inner voice that tells you who you are fading into silence.

true magick is being able to walk. being able to wake up in the morning and go to sleep at night. everything in between you create as your own "alchemist" for lack of a better word. so maybe its the inner you warning yourself that your fading fast and you need to do some immediate inner work to find your roots.

like i said if im wrong grain of salt... if not i suggest taking a walk outside and listening to the wind and laughing at things you find funny no matter where or who's around. if you can still do that there may be hope left
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