Cobol Dangerous?, ...possibility of developing the Kundalini Syndrome? Options

OK, so that's what concerns me - I added Circulation of the Body of Light to my daily ritual work more than a month ago. Since then I've been wondering if I'm doing it right and if I'm not hurting myself. Why? When I perform the Ritual of the Middle Pillar, the energy (the light) descends only a bit reluctantly while it ASCENDS (during the ending part of CoboL) very reluctantly. I used to kinda force it up - which reminds me of the warnings that any work Kundalini raising should not be performed unsupervised or too early.

Okay, a short pause for some side notes. 1.) yes, I do realize that exercises from different traditions shouldn't be compared, but we do have only one energetic system, no matter what path (if any) we follow; 2.) I found two version of the ending part of CoBoL. I use the one that resembles Kundalini raising (just a pillar of brilliant white light ascending, of course starting from Malkuth, the feet rather than just from the root chakra) because I simply can't synchronize 'the Mummy' version with my breathing, as wrapping in energy takes me too long, making me pump myself with unnatural amounts of air (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

Right, here we go again (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) Isn't forcing the energy harmful? Isn't there a possibility of developing the Kundalini syndrome with the practice of CoBoL? Yeah, I now it would be best to have a teacher, but I don't think it's possible while I live here. I was thinking about abandoning this exercise for some time but some idea occurred to me... Maybe I was forcing the energy because I was moving it TOO consciously? What I mean is, I practice New Energy Ways by Robert Bruce. It teaches how one can easily feel and manipulate the energy in one's energetic body. So... I realized I'd been subconsciously using some of N.E.W. techniques while doing CoBoL and I was possibly too efficient with it. Now, I concentrate on NOT using those techniques and I try to merely visualize everything. The light ascends more freely but I'm afraid the efficiency of the whole exercise is lower now as I don't feel the energy moving, don't feel dizzy as I used to feel during and after CoBoL etc.

What do you think and what would you recommend?

Greetings Iampagan!
I'm going on my first impressions here...but, slow it down! You are really pushing things, In My Humble Opinion (IMHO), too fast.
You are mixing and blending a number of different systems here. If you were to work each of them separately you would notice the subtle variations of results.

2.) I found two version of the ending part of CoBoL. I use the one that resembles Kundalini raising (just a pillar of brilliant white light ascending, of course starting from Malkuth, the feet rather than just from the root chakra) because I simply can't synchronize 'the Mummy' version with my breathing, as wrapping in energy takes me too long, making me pump myself with unnatural amounts of air

You're not breathing properly. Hyperventilating is not what you want to do! It will produce symptoms as you describe and accomplish little toward your intended goal. Pranayama isn't something that is mastered overnight. Some spend their entire lifetime perfecting it.

Forcing anything energetically can be potentially harmful. Not that it is in this case but you may take the time to meditate on the why and how of the energy flow of your body. I am not an expert, by any means, of energy circulation. It appears to me that you are rushing things. I would suggest that you find a system of energy exercise and stick to it, leaving the others for awhile until you have mastered the first. It is frustrating when you are all worked up to GO but improvising and synthesizing energy working systems should be taken slowly, adapting various practices with your own bodies needs and functionality. So much for the canned speech. Conclusion: slow down. Meditate on your energy centers and discover any blockages you may have. Try to resist the temptation to combine various systems until you are aware of what each one does. Know thyself.

This may or may not have been helpful. I'm sure that someone else will add their perspective and I urge you to take the time to consider your options. Good journey! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)