Cobol Dangerous?, ...possibility of developing the Kundalini Syndrome? Options

OK, so that's what concerns me - I added Circulation of the Body of Light to my daily ritual work more than a month ago. Since then I've been wondering if I'm doing it right and if I'm not hurting myself. Why? When I perform the Ritual of the Middle Pillar, the energy (the light) descends only a bit reluctantly while it ASCENDS (during the ending part of CoboL) very reluctantly. I used to kinda force it up - which reminds me of the warnings that any work Kundalini raising should not be performed unsupervised or too early.

Okay, a short pause for some side notes. 1.) yes, I do realize that exercises from different traditions shouldn't be compared, but we do have only one energetic system, no matter what path (if any) we follow; 2.) I found two version of the ending part of CoBoL. I use the one that resembles Kundalini raising (just a pillar of brilliant white light ascending, of course starting from Malkuth, the feet rather than just from the root chakra) because I simply can't synchronize 'the Mummy' version with my breathing, as wrapping in energy takes me too long, making me pump myself with unnatural amounts of air (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

Right, here we go again (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) Isn't forcing the energy harmful? Isn't there a possibility of developing the Kundalini syndrome with the practice of CoBoL? Yeah, I now it would be best to have a teacher, but I don't think it's possible while I live here. I was thinking about abandoning this exercise for some time but some idea occurred to me... Maybe I was forcing the energy because I was moving it TOO consciously? What I mean is, I practice New Energy Ways by Robert Bruce. It teaches how one can easily feel and manipulate the energy in one's energetic body. So... I realized I'd been subconsciously using some of N.E.W. techniques while doing CoBoL and I was possibly too efficient with it. Now, I concentrate on NOT using those techniques and I try to merely visualize everything. The light ascends more freely but I'm afraid the efficiency of the whole exercise is lower now as I don't feel the energy moving, don't feel dizzy as I used to feel during and after CoBoL etc.

What do you think and what would you recommend?

Greetings Iampagan!
I'm going on my first impressions here...but, slow it down! You are really pushing things, In My Humble Opinion (IMHO), too fast.
You are mixing and blending a number of different systems here. If you were to work each of them separately you would notice the subtle variations of results.

2.) I found two version of the ending part of CoBoL. I use the one that resembles Kundalini raising (just a pillar of brilliant white light ascending, of course starting from Malkuth, the feet rather than just from the root chakra) because I simply can't synchronize 'the Mummy' version with my breathing, as wrapping in energy takes me too long, making me pump myself with unnatural amounts of air

You're not breathing properly. Hyperventilating is not what you want to do! It will produce symptoms as you describe and accomplish little toward your intended goal. Pranayama isn't something that is mastered overnight. Some spend their entire lifetime perfecting it.

Forcing anything energetically can be potentially harmful. Not that it is in this case but you may take the time to meditate on the why and how of the energy flow of your body. I am not an expert, by any means, of energy circulation. It appears to me that you are rushing things. I would suggest that you find a system of energy exercise and stick to it, leaving the others for awhile until you have mastered the first. It is frustrating when you are all worked up to GO but improvising and synthesizing energy working systems should be taken slowly, adapting various practices with your own bodies needs and functionality. So much for the canned speech. Conclusion: slow down. Meditate on your energy centers and discover any blockages you may have. Try to resist the temptation to combine various systems until you are aware of what each one does. Know thyself.

This may or may not have been helpful. I'm sure that someone else will add their perspective and I urge you to take the time to consider your options. Good journey! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

The major difference between the MP ritual including the CBL, and Kundalini work that is least taken into account is the physical aspect of the energetic movements - MP moves down through the spiritual core of the being, Kundalini moves up through the central canal of the spine. Kundalini is the nervous energy locked in the nerve plexii of the sacroiliac area. /Sacrum/Coccyx. So, there is no danger of activating kundalini inadvertently through 'improper' practice of the MP ritual (I consider CBL to be a part of the MP ritual.) So, there is no comparison to be made - they are different practices, affecting different parts of the being all together. There may only be one energy system, but it has many layers - some say an infinite number - and most cultures interpret and separate them differently.

An important note, as Kundalini has been a hot topic of discussion lately it seems, and I have seen lots of practices dealing with it - Kundalini is a psychophysical phenomenon. It deals with the excitation of latent bioenergetic nervous potential rising up the physical nerves of the spine and into the physical brain. Even in yogic practice it is said that Raja Yoga (yoga of the mind) is the greatest yoga, and the longest yoga. You'd have to be a hermit to be affecting your kundalini in any way with your mind alone - which these practices are - because you'd have to be actually affecting your nervous system with only your mind. The most efficient kundalini practice involves Hatha, Jnana, Raja, and Pranayama yogas. ('Kundalini Yoga' which is a western concoction, is a combination of these other four practices). You cannot accidently awaken your kundalini doing any kind of other esoteric practice, unless you're trying to do it on purpose - and in that case doing enough of anything 'to awaken your kundalini' will actualize that intention and make it happen; and that's when you run into problems. But like I said, you have to hermit yourself away in a cave and live it, breathe it, become it, in order to do it with your mind alone.

Now, as far as forcing energy goes, it's okay to force the energy during the MP ritual. This is because the ritual is suppose to clarify and fortify your body of light, or rather, the energetic body that will become your body of light one day. If you have trouble getting the energy to move, then you have blockages. Plow through them, there is no danger there. It will get easier over time. You may have some emotional turbulence while beginning and pursuing these practices. You'll find that you'll have a sort of emotional roller coaster in your life for a short period, as well as some periodic mental vacuity or overactiveness - again, a roller coaster ride - and then gradually everything will settle and you're emotional and mental planes will be far more stable than they were before. This is your energetic body - the etheric, emotional, and mental layers in any case - clearing blockages, opening channels, and circulating energy more clearly. When they are fortified, and your condition develops 'structural integrity' as it were, you astral body will begin to benefit as well, and this is when you'll begin to notice the other benefits of this practice.

Hope this helps.

peace