Cobol Dangerous?, ...possibility of developing the Kundalini Syndrome? Options

OK, so that's what concerns me - I added Circulation of the Body of Light to my daily ritual work more than a month ago. Since then I've been wondering if I'm doing it right and if I'm not hurting myself. Why? When I perform the Ritual of the Middle Pillar, the energy (the light) descends only a bit reluctantly while it ASCENDS (during the ending part of CoboL) very reluctantly. I used to kinda force it up - which reminds me of the warnings that any work Kundalini raising should not be performed unsupervised or too early.

Okay, a short pause for some side notes. 1.) yes, I do realize that exercises from different traditions shouldn't be compared, but we do have only one energetic system, no matter what path (if any) we follow; 2.) I found two version of the ending part of CoBoL. I use the one that resembles Kundalini raising (just a pillar of brilliant white light ascending, of course starting from Malkuth, the feet rather than just from the root chakra) because I simply can't synchronize 'the Mummy' version with my breathing, as wrapping in energy takes me too long, making me pump myself with unnatural amounts of air (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif)

Right, here we go again (IMG:style_emoticons/default/smile.gif) Isn't forcing the energy harmful? Isn't there a possibility of developing the Kundalini syndrome with the practice of CoBoL? Yeah, I now it would be best to have a teacher, but I don't think it's possible while I live here. I was thinking about abandoning this exercise for some time but some idea occurred to me... Maybe I was forcing the energy because I was moving it TOO consciously? What I mean is, I practice New Energy Ways by Robert Bruce. It teaches how one can easily feel and manipulate the energy in one's energetic body. So... I realized I'd been subconsciously using some of N.E.W. techniques while doing CoBoL and I was possibly too efficient with it. Now, I concentrate on NOT using those techniques and I try to merely visualize everything. The light ascends more freely but I'm afraid the efficiency of the whole exercise is lower now as I don't feel the energy moving, don't feel dizzy as I used to feel during and after CoBoL etc.

What do you think and what would you recommend?

Greetings!
This is slightly off-topic but, I think, must be said, nonetheless.
The purpose in telling you to slow down and not blend systems was addressed very well by Vagrant. I am disturbed about something else you said:

Your post made me rethink some matters but also made me a bit confused, to tell you the truth... as I partly lost the confidence in what I'm doing...

Why? You have an array of fine exercises, a good mind and the drive to accomplish whatever you desire to achieve. IMHO, you have laid out a study/practice syllabus that may be too steep to climb! I was not one to follow established ways in my practice of magic...I was extremely enthusiastic. It makes for an interesting life! Good! But don't set yourself up to fail. You have delineated your rate of success in almost black and white terms! It may take longer than 5 years to accomplish what you have set out to do! Astral projection in a couple of months? Read Bruces book again. It is very noble to have these aspirations and they will pay off! But the goal is only a third of the prize! The journey is another third. Both of those are wrapped in the last third, a conciousness that encompasses your realities. Will you be so discouraged enough to throw it out when your "impatience" factor is reached? I hope not. Magic permeates you. I hope you achieve your goals, living them fully along the way, even if it takes a lifetime!

So much for brevity...! LOL! (IMG:style_emoticons/default/horse.gif)