Spiritual Satanism And Shamanism, Do you represent freedom or chaos? Options

I am a black Catholic that sees the world in a different perspective. Ever since I was a little boy I hated going to church. I would always fall asleep on my mom's shoulder. Since I am older I am a altar server because of my parents different faiths. My mom's Baptist and my dad is Catholic. My mom's philosophy is to take initiative and my dad is as a man you must have responsibility. Those philsophies are true because it shows that you care for life. Ever since growing up I got this feeling that I have purpose to save this world. I know this sounds crazy but to me when you look at government, religion, and money they must be destroyed. The religious leaders of the world want to unite all the religions as one. To me this F@#$king crazy. The Vatican especially must pay for their ignorance and corrupt behavior for mankind's suffering. I'm sick and tired of the people of this planet fighting each other over president's, religious issues, race, and especially money. Now as a black man I do respect that Barack Obama will be to me symbolically a wave for change. But to me since he is with politics and politicians can't change a thing. He must show to me a sign for change and that must start for this country.

For Shaman and Spiritual Satanists(Answer Please):

Is the movement that you're in can help society or create chaos?

Do you both believe in the higher self and Solomon's practice of the occults?

Freewill vs. Laws of Man.
Since laws creates problems instead of solving them should we as a society roam around doing whatever we want. Meaning issues concerning rape and killing. For example: If I was going to go out and to kill somebody for sport and to sexually abuse a woman for the sake of I can do it. Is there anything in the afterlife that is spiritual damnation?
Does good and evil exist in freewill or is that these 2 words that we fed to us by adults corrupt our mental intellect?

Supposedly, In 2012 the Sun will go out and there will exist only darkness? If there exists only but darkness by then. How are we going to see in the morning? More importantly what is going to truly happen on December 21, 2012?

I ask a personal question for Satanists, Do you guys are in coalition witht the ignorant Illuminati family who has the utmost odescity to think they can take human beings rights?

For the Shaman's: Is man and woman affect the world around them today by their thoughts. Does truly the pulsing energy of our thoughts manifest in to reality?

I'm GOing to say this for being funny but, OBAMA's PRESIDENT B@&%^. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh

P.S. He still to me and the rest that he must show change.

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When I was referring to that website I just wanted to find out if it was evil or not. Apparently, it is and finally someone like you answered the question. I heard people say that their is a secret name of God and that our ancestor Lilith said it. I am interested in spiritual satanism because some reason whenever I indulge in to things that my family, or religion says that it'll corrupt you it is so evil. Like for example as a Catholic my priest always talk about that sex is so sinful and you must control the desires. If I was rude I would have said I'll stop thinking about those hot girls at my catholic high school who are white and have nice asses if you stop beating you f@Cking dick. He always has something to say that he thinks is ultimately evil. Now if I want to spiritual satanism as a catholic where do I began? Okay, I don't want to side sound ignorant but the magick is it that I can do anything that I want . Like if I wanted to have randomly some chick come to my house. I don't mean by forcing her but it since like the law of attraction if you think about something long enough and have faith that you'll get it you'll have it. But if I do learn this it will be more than just woman. The only reason why I am so curious is because I have always been to me that something supernatural is always been around me sometimes. I have intances like one time when i was a little boy I woke up one morning and something said in a loud voice and with care that i'll be in trouble today. I still can't get over it. Or when one night I was in a nightmare and something was on top me for a few seconds that said that I won't win. But the recent thing in the last 2 months was in another dream it felt as though some slithering snake was slipping up to my head(it wasn't kunalini). When I woke up I was scared or when I was at my grandma's this summer and i had prayed to Lilith( now knowing that I shouldn't). After I prayed to Lilith, this was after all those incidents in another thread that I made when I had those sexual adventures at night. Now back to the story, after I had got into bed and 30 minutes I suppose had passed I felt my body was becoming numb and that something grabbed my arm not like violently but you just grabbed it and then I was all brave and I went "Who goes there" nobody answers but then it comes back I can feel something on top me I have to admit having sex with me. So then I get out a bed again,"Who goes there" nobody answers. So after a while I fall asleep and no bad dreams happen. No bad dreams have happen since. As a matter of fact, I don't think I can dream any more, because it seems that my life is at default. I can't cisualize like it is there. I can day dream but when I close my eyes it's only but darkness literal darkness nothing. The other reason why I want to use magick for to get back at someone and just to let you know it's not to kill someone. I heard incidents of some idiot wanted to kill someone and someone he love died instead of the person he hated. It's something really minor and it has nothing to do with killing. So i putting my foot down on this if anyone asks. But the ultimate reason I want to try this out is to have fun but I know I have to be responsible with this magick and I hear you. Is this site and forums is about esoteric knowledge then I am up for it because my people(every human on this planet) must look to each other as one. THe only reason why I was acting mad about some people need to be destroyed is because I seen the movie Zeitgeist and Zeitgeist 2. These 2 movies hit me in the head like never before I have never seen manipulation at work as money, and politics. Religion is easy to point out that they fakers because they all talk about they have revelations from God, gods, or no god and that they superior than the other. please tell me on the sacred-magick.com website what must I do as a beginner to start. PLEASE