Spiritual Satanism And Shamanism, Do you represent freedom or chaos? Options

I am a black Catholic that sees the world in a different perspective. Ever since I was a little boy I hated going to church. I would always fall asleep on my mom's shoulder. Since I am older I am a altar server because of my parents different faiths. My mom's Baptist and my dad is Catholic. My mom's philosophy is to take initiative and my dad is as a man you must have responsibility. Those philsophies are true because it shows that you care for life. Ever since growing up I got this feeling that I have purpose to save this world. I know this sounds crazy but to me when you look at government, religion, and money they must be destroyed. The religious leaders of the world want to unite all the religions as one. To me this F@#$king crazy. The Vatican especially must pay for their ignorance and corrupt behavior for mankind's suffering. I'm sick and tired of the people of this planet fighting each other over president's, religious issues, race, and especially money. Now as a black man I do respect that Barack Obama will be to me symbolically a wave for change. But to me since he is with politics and politicians can't change a thing. He must show to me a sign for change and that must start for this country.

For Shaman and Spiritual Satanists(Answer Please):

Is the movement that you're in can help society or create chaos?

Do you both believe in the higher self and Solomon's practice of the occults?

Freewill vs. Laws of Man.
Since laws creates problems instead of solving them should we as a society roam around doing whatever we want. Meaning issues concerning rape and killing. For example: If I was going to go out and to kill somebody for sport and to sexually abuse a woman for the sake of I can do it. Is there anything in the afterlife that is spiritual damnation?
Does good and evil exist in freewill or is that these 2 words that we fed to us by adults corrupt our mental intellect?

Supposedly, In 2012 the Sun will go out and there will exist only darkness? If there exists only but darkness by then. How are we going to see in the morning? More importantly what is going to truly happen on December 21, 2012?

I ask a personal question for Satanists, Do you guys are in coalition witht the ignorant Illuminati family who has the utmost odescity to think they can take human beings rights?

For the Shaman's: Is man and woman affect the world around them today by their thoughts. Does truly the pulsing energy of our thoughts manifest in to reality?

I'm GOing to say this for being funny but, OBAMA's PRESIDENT B@&%^. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh

P.S. He still to me and the rest that he must show change.

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and there is no evil, and no good, just energy

it is only your relative energy that makes it 'feel' one way or the other

the energy never changes, only your emotional response to it from your relative level

eat only meat for a month and see how you feel, then don't eat any meat at all for a month and see how you feel

same reality, just different observation and subjective evaluation

in objective reality vs subjective reality, both suck and neither is true reality as both are filtered through half-blind observation and faulty senses

so, whom do you serve?

'because you serve the lords of chaos', as rodant kapoor said to ruby1